My Birthday

My birthday fell on a Wednesday this year. I was kinda not happy because I hate Wednesdays. Every Wednesday, I have to go to a Girl Guide's meeting or whatever it is called. And I hate Girl Guide meetings. It means I had to be separated from Raihah. So, I planned not to go. But Raihah kept convincing me to. (Stopping. I suck at this)

The night before my birthday, Dina and Double and Raihah did a countdown. They were funny xD. Especially Dina. She seemed more excited than I was. She sent a wall post on my facebook wall every minute, counting down the minutes to midnight. I guess they were all competing for the first one to wish me a "Happy Birthday". Of course, Dina won. Then, Marissa, from my old school, then it was Double D, then Haziq. LOL ! Raihah sent me a message in the morning when I was about to go to school. She said she fell asleep riiiiiight before the clock strikes twelve.

My only wish for the day was so that it could be a great day that I can remember for the rest of my life. It wasn't -.-''. At first, it was nice. I mean, having the class singing me "Happy Birthday", people wishing me (SINCERELY) and giving me presents. Well, only Double D, Zafirah and Amirah gave me presents, but it's okay. Sonia and Eleesya gave me a card. They were very nice.

And then came recess (when it turned bad). I was being hyper as always. No, not extra hyper. Just hyper until Sabrina and Sarah Farhana and Annafiza, I think, wished me, which was odd. But I was okay. Happy even that they remembered, or cared to wish me. Then, Lisa came along. She 'wished' me a "Happy Birthday" VERY un-sincerely (I know, not a word ! Not caring. I can't seem to find the right word) which made my day bad ! What's her problem? She still hasn't got over the fight we had months ago?! Oh for God's sake, SHE WON ! What else does she want from me?! I mean, she got everything. The victory, the apology, the forgiveness. What else? She wants me to beg on my knees? Well, sorry. I won't do that. You're just not worth it. To me la. To your other friends, yeah, maybe they will do that. But I'm sorry, I just can't bear to see myself being so pathetic to apologize on my knees to somebody I don't even care about. If you don't want to wish me, fine, I don't care. It's better to NOT wish than wishing it un-sincerely! For months I thought you were the perfect one, the smart one, the pretty one but then, you did this, which made me think otherwise. I mean, if you're so smart, you should know that by now, the fight is over, you won, I lost, I apologized and wishing somebody a "Happy Birthday" with a fake-cute-perfect-I-am-so-the-queen voice just makes you a jerk. Seriously, I've never thought that you were one before this, but now, I am thinking that. Sorry la. It's just that, why? Does it make you happy to ruin my day? Does it make you happy to see me sad? Does it make you happy to see that you have the power and I'm just a loser? If that is true, what kind of person are you? Yeah , yeah, I know, now, you're gonna say that I do the same to you. Well, I don't. I know I talk about you sometimes, but I do not wish to see you sad or to ruin your day or to make you feel like a sore loser. Now you're thinking, yeah right. Like that's true. It is true. You just don't know it. That's another thing ! You said that it's a waste of your time to talk about me or so talk to me or to deal with me but you still do ! What is wrong with you? You're the one who said it's a waste of your time, but why do you still do it? Don't deny it la. I know you talk about me. And you made a freakin' song about me JUST to shoo me out of your class. You know, there's an easy way to do that. You could just GO to me and say that I should not be in your class. I'll leave. There's no need waste your time making a song just to shoo me. Yeah, I was so wrong to think that you are SO smart. Seriously, I just don't get you and your people. I get that you guys rule the school, but to show that you're the queens of the school to a loser like me just make you look bad. Or does it make you the hero or the queen to your people? Well then, fine. Do that. I'll just keep quiet of what I think. It doesn't matter anyway, right?

I skipped the Girl Guide's meeting. So did Eleesya, Lily, Amirah, Aina, Marina and Fitria. Razleena had nothing that evening, so we hung with her too. And Deanna was there. We watched the guys playing dodge ball. Or more like observing Aina's crushes. Man, that girl has so many crushes, I can't even count. They were really funny. Somehow, they made my day a little better. Well, at least until we got back to the canteen and I saw the person who ruined my day -.-''. So much for having a great day to remember for the rest of my life.

Come to think of it, it wasn't THAT much of a bad day. It was fun at times. Like, the time when it rained during History class. The storm was AWESOME ! I love rainy days. And then, the laughter I had with them was indescribably great. And the thought of them giving me presents and giving me cards is just great. :D The next day, Hidayah gave me a huge birthday card and I made a new wish. I wish that all these people will be my friends forever.

P/S: Nurin (or anybody else in your group), if you happen to read this blog post, sorry if I said something bad about you and your friends or something.