Forever ?

You know when you say something is forever, are you really certain that it will be forever? Like, when in fairy tales, they say that Cinderella lives happily ever after with her prince, Snow White live happily ever after with hers, Aurora with Philip and all that. But, they are cartoon shows. What about in real life? Is there any way that something can last forever?

Maybe gold and silver will last forever. Maybe non-biodegradable things will last forever. But what about friendship? Puppy love? Relationships? They say friendships last forever, but do they? Haven't you ever had a best friend? I mean like, a real best friend. A person you trust. A person you tell your secrets to. A person you talk about weird things with. She/he is the most trusted person ever. You get so close to each other. And then, suddenly she/he is not your best friend anymore. All those months of being so close to that one person, then suddenly, the next thing you know, you're just not anymore. Feeling so secure with him/her, being so confident that you'll be best friends for forever, then everything disappeared. Your trust. The relationship you had. The secrets you told that person. All gone. When you think it back, it's kinda sad, don't you think?

When you're young, you get puppy loves. You get in all sorts of relationships. Some are bad, some are good and some are just wonderful. When he tells you he loves you, the butterflies in your stomach flutters, your heart beats twice as fast, you feel so light as if you could fly. And then, you or your friend would cut out a heart-shaped paper and write your name + your boyfriend's name and at the end, there will be a "forever". But that's at first. What happens when he gets addicted to something, let's say a game, and before that, you two used to get along so well. I mean, like, communicate for hours. Talk on the phone, chat, email, face to face. All that and then, when he fell in love with the game, you feel like you're forgotten, when he doesn't really forgets you. But how would you know that he's thinking about you all of the time when he plays his game, and you keep waiting for him to go online, to call you, to at least send a text message to you to say that he misses you like a pathetic person? What if he forgets about you? What if he like, sets a date when you guys can chat or talk to each other, but then, when he does call or go online, you didn't pick up the phone or you didn't go online and you missed your one and only chance to talk to him. But it wasn't on purpose. Maybe you were busy, maybe you were sleeping, maybe there was internet problem. His free time might not be your free time. What if it has been so long since you two had a long private conversation together, and you fall out of love with him? Maybe it's not that long, just that, sometimes, when you love somebody, two days seems like forever. You can say that it's nothing, it's just a day or two, but you'd be surprise of what would happen, like if you cry 'cause you miss him so much.

If I'm writing this, it doesn't mean that I am having these problems. It's just on my mind. Like, what if it were really to happen. How would you feel? Would you have expected it? I'm not saying that I've had experience will all these. I don't. Well, maybe some of it, but I don't know. Maybe I read something like this in a book somewhere. It doesn't really mean I have to go through it to know about it. Maybe I've seen my friends having these kind of experiences, maybe that's why these things are in my head. Just because I write about that heart shaped paper thingy, doesn't mean I do it. Just because I wrote that question about falling out of love with somebody, doesn't mean that I am falling out of love with Haziq. Doesn't mean I want more time with him, although it would be nice. I mean, sometimes, I don't want time with him, I need time with him. But I don't know. I just get through it. Sometimes, people just need to get through something they can't get. Just ignore the empty feeling I guess. It's not that I couldn't get it, I could always text him and say "I wanna chat with you", it's just that, I don't want to intrude his guy time. Of course, it can't be all the time that he plays his game, but whatever I guess. I can't control him. I just have to get through the day. Even if I cry sometimes. It doesn't really matter. Whatever makes him happy, makes me happy. I think. I don't know. It's just that, when he chats with me, I don't want him to do it because he has to. I want him to do it because he wants to. If you think I'm writing this because I want him to do this and that, you're wrong. I don't, really. Like I said, I don't want him to do it unless he wants to. So, like, just.. I'm sorry. I don't know what has gotten into me. Maybe I'm just one of those people who thinks that two days is forever. I don't know. It's not that we don't talk, it's just that, we haven't talked or chat for hours. The last time we chatted, it only lasted for about two seconds. Once, when he said he has got to go after a few minutes, my heart actually sank. But it's no big deal. I don't think so it is. He's a good guy. Let him be. When I really really need him, I'll say it. At least now, I can live through the day. *Shrug* I know, I am so complicated. How unlucky of him to have me :P. Sorry.

Anyway, so still certain that something could be forever? Can your relationship with your best friend last forever? Can the relationship between you and your partner be forever? Even if your bond with somebody is so close, you can't even explain it, anything could happen. Maybe I am just talking crap, but think about it. All the "what ifs", all the possibilities. You never know.