Apology Letter To Lisa

Lisa, I understand that you maybe mad at me. It's my fault. Well, part of it la. You did do something to make me mad at you. Yeah, you changed. I gotta accept that. I mean, we all change. There's not one person who doesn't change. Anyway, if our friendship were really to end, I'd want it to end NOT because we're mad at each other or something. But, because it's really meant to end. But, to me, friendships never end. It's just.... we're not as close as before. I do miss hanging out with you. But, seeing that you changed to one of those people, it hurts me you know. 'Cause it makes me think that I lose my best friend. If you wanna be gedik with them, it's okay with me. But, when you're with me, can't you be the way you used to be? If you can't, it's okay. Maybe you fit in with those people, not my kinda people. Having a friend like you, really is something. Sometimes you do act like a whore or a slut or a bitch or whatever la... I don't even know what those things mean anymore... but, it's you. I can't change you. I can't control you.

Yes, I do forget about the great times we had when I'm mad. But, you do too. I mean, who doesn't? Are we gonna let our friendship die just because of those people you hang out with? I don't wanna judge them because they're them and yeah, you're right, I maybe one of them too. But you gotta know, since you had a boyfriend, you acted badly. I mean, couldn't you at least be nicer to him? Maybe your best friends act like bitches to their boyfriends but you don't have to be. Just be yourself la. He didn't even ask for more than what you can give him. But then, it's too late already. He's fallen in love with another person and you broke up already. Just to tell you, when you have your next boyfriend, don't act like the way you treated Haziq. Even if it is a dare, you should deny it. Sacrifice. If the dare says that if you don't do the dare they asked you to, you'd have to embarrass yourself, it's for the best. But, I don't expect you to do it.

I know I menyampah dengan your best friends but, not everybody likes everybody. Maybe you like them, maybe I don't. Maybe I like Dina, maybe you don't. We can't change it. All that matters is ourselves. Leave them to their business. If they wanna back stab me, then, do it la. If you wanna join them, it's okay. I have been extra bitchy nowadays since you're friends with them. Maybe they support you 100% but I can't support you 100%. Maybe sometimes I can, but sometimes, you gotta think who's right and who's wrong. If you really think that you are right, then, go ahead. Do what you think is best.

Maybe I do judge people. But you do too. Lisa, you shouldn't have said that Nadhrah is not pretty and her voice sucks and all. She's beautiful. I mean, everybody is beautiful in their own way. I know I judge people too but, I'll try to stop. I know it's not right. And, if I wanna judge people, I should not judge about them in front of you or while on the phone with you. I know I'm wrong, sorry. I'd take back the words I've said but unfortunately , I can't. It's weird how people can think... erm... if that person said something bad, and they take it back... people think that it's okay. But, you gotta realize that if I say "I take back my words", doesn't change a thing. It's already been said. Nothing you can do. Think about it. Maybe I am wrong, but, the way I see it, taking back some words you just said doesn't change a thing. Better apologize than saying "I take back those words" .

I'm sorry Lisa. I really am. I hope you forgive me. :)