Fights

We all have fights. It doesn't matter if you're best friends, enemies or strangers. We all do. It's a normal thing. Fights often start as small jokes. Then, suddenly, it gets bigger and bigger until almost everybody is involved. It just happens like that. No matter who you are, one of the popular people, one of the lamest people, it just happens like that or maybe it will. Fights start when a person did something wrong or something like that.

The most recent fights I have been in was with Lisa. Well, it started with Haziq liking Nadhrah or something. Then, later later.... it became big. Most of the Form 1 people knows, some other people who are not really involved knows, even a teacher knows they say. But I guess, fights like this, just spread really fast. Maybe some fights stay in one group but some other spreads all over. It maybe because a person told them or something. I don't know who, but there must be a person. And, I'd rather the fight just be between the people who are really involved. Broken English, I know.. Blah.. But yeah, who wants a small thing turn into a big thing and everybody knows about it? No one, right? So, whoever reading this knows the person who told the other people, can you please tell them not to? Because , I don't know them. And, ask them for me, do they like it if I do it to them? Tell everything about the fight....

Anyway, the fight.... I don't really know la why we fight. Why? Because I back stabbed you? So what? Everybody back stabs everybody when they're mad. Yes, I am sorry but I don't know la. I don't know what to say now. I don't wanna say what I feel because I know it's wrong. And, no, I did not think about how you feel. You guys say I should think about others' feelings, but what about mine? Don't you think I have feelings? Yes, I know, I should really think about stuff first before I say them, but sometimes, people don't think. I'm not saying you guys, I'm saying me. And maybe some other people too. So, it's a mistake. A simple mistake that got into a big thing. Okay, I admit that I was wrong to give Haziq the picture of Nadhrah, but it was just a joke at first. See? It all happens because of a joke. -.-''. I did not think how you would feel at that time. But like I said, people sometimes don't think. You guys don't too sometimes. Really, it's not just me. Try thinking again. Yeah, maybe you don't do these things to your best friends but I don't know la you guys. I admit that I was wrong for stuffs I did wrong whatever that is. I really am sorry.

Seriously, people, I am sorry. If you say you don't believe that I'm sorry, or you don't forgive me, then, it's your problem. I apologized and I'm willing to do anything, just that, you guys also don't know what you want me to do, how am I supposed to prove that I really am sorry? I'd do your homework, be your slaves or whatever you guys wanna do to me. Although I think that's too harsh or just taking advantage of me, I don't mind. Anything to make you guys happy and anything to make you guys forgive me. But I will not stop being friends with Haziq even if it's the only thing that can make you guys forgive me. That's the only thing I can't do. Even if you ask for it, I cannot. If you really wanna know why, you ask me la. If you guys really hate me, then, there's nothing I can do.

Actually, to be honest, I don't regret the fights. All the fights I had, taught me a lesson. Big and small. They all teach lessons. Somehow. You get to know what kind of friend that person you're fighting with, is. You get to discover new things. You realized how bad it is. Yes, you lose people's trust but, at least you learn something. (you means me la) . Maybe the person you lose trust with isn't really your friend. Fights are sometimes also fun too. Somehow. Sometimes, when you fight, if you cry, means that you really want that person to be your friend again but if you don't, that means you don't care, I guess. Well, not care that much. I didn't cry. Well, I did, but not until my eyes were red, face turn pale and stuff... Just that, my eyes watered a bit.

You guys, the people who are involved or just trying to be involved, I'm sorry. I don't know how to show that, but I really am sorry. You guys wanna hate me, hate me la. I just gotta accept the fact. But I just wanna say, hating somebody is a sin. So, I picked to not hate you guys. I don't wanna make this fight bigger. If you guys do, it's your problem. I'm not gonna be in it. Everything you say, I'll just respond, "I'm sorry, are we done here?". That's the only thing I'm gonna say if this thing gets bigger. Now, I'm sorry, I know I said that like a million times already, but I just want you guys to hear it. If you can't hear it, then, tell me. I'll go face to face with you or mouth to ear... :P But seriously guys, I don't wanna make this bigger. Tomorrow is the last day. Don't wanna forgive me, it's okay. As long as you guys know I'm sorry.