Facial Expressions

Do you know that you can tell how somebody's feeling inside by just looking at their faces? I just realized that today, actually. I mean, at first, I wasn't sure. I thought it was just something some people could do, but I think everybody can. Like, if you just went through a break up or someone you loved died, and you say you're fine, nobody's gonna believe you. Even if you have a smile on your face, even if you laugh at jokes, they'll know that you feel sad inside.

My friends, even though I laugh and I smile, and I act as if I don't think of my ex, they still know that I'm sad inside. I mean, I didn't even know I was sad inside. But I guess, if I dig really deep down, there is. It surprised me that not only my close friends know. The girl who sits next to me in class, Sara, she knows by just looking at me that I'm still somehow hoping for him to come back. I was honestly amazed. I didn't even tell her, and I doubt any of my friends would tell her, 'cause they're not even close to her, so how would she know? And no, she didn't even read my "diary".

I'm starting to observe people more nowadays, looking at their faces, to see who they really are, why they act the way they do, what they're feeling inside. And it actually works. On some people. You can even tell my their tone, when they speak. The girl who plays with boys, seniors, she's not happy. If you really look at her, if you observe her, she's lost. She doesn't know what to do with her life if she doesn't fool around with guys. And then, there's the other girl who's just like her, only prettier and she dates them, instead of fooling around with them. You think she's happy? Having to let herself like guys after guys, and then getting her heart broken every single time. That's bad, you know. The teacher who's always grumpy and teaches boringly, who knows? She might be stressed out with her life, not having kids. Maybe she really wanted kids, but can't have them, and seeing other people's children, teaching them, that would just remind her of the things, the people she can't have. The guy who acts like nothing's wrong with his life, when there's so many you don't know. The one who keeps bothering you, he's just trying to get away from his family or whoever that's making him sad.

Okay, these things might not be true, but who knows? My friend said, your gut is always 75% right. So, who's to say it's not true? And I'm not saying it is, I'm just saying what I see on their faces. And who the heck are we to judge them? To say that the girls are sluts and bitches, to say that that teacher is mean and is only giving you stress, and to say that the boy is annoying? I mean, we don't even know what's their story, and already, we're giving them looks and backbites. I don't know. It's just wrong. There are a lot of maybes in this world, you know. You never know what's happened, what's going on and what's gonna come, so it's better to just not think about other people badly, and just stick to the positive side. Like they say, "watch your thoughts, they become words. Watch your words, they become actions. Watch your actions, they become habits."

Learn something here. Not everybody acts the way they do because they want to. And we have no right to say stuff about them. If you wanna think bad about them, then go on. But just don't let them become words and actions. Keep your mean thoughts to yourself.

And I realize, I should stop saying that my teachers are mean and start appreciating them, 'cause without them, I'm not a person. I should stop backbiting my friends (I DON'T ANYMORE. Not much, anyway. Actually, I don't even remember the last time i backbit my friends), and start having fun with them and be real. Okay, fine, I lied. I do remember the last time I talked about my friend, and that was last night, but I was just worried about someone, okay?! But, I'm gonna stop. Just sometimes, there will be occasional backbites. SOMETIMES. Like, once in a blue moon, whatever the heck that means.