Criticism

I've been getting a LOT of offending statements about me lately. And I've just realized why. I know, what kind of girl, who's been criticized by a lot of people, just realized this NOW? Hasn't it been clear enough, the first time she was criticized? God, Amilah, you're just so dumb!

Yeah, you can say that. I admit it myself, I'm not the smartest kid around. And realizing something, yeah, not really my thing. I don't like realizing things, because it ALWAYS comes back to me. It's all me, me, ME. All MY fault. Yes, you can say I'm a person with lots of faults. I don't really know how to do things perfectly, as I am only human. I cannot do great things. I'm just mediocre, unlike some people, who are great. Like my friends. I see them everyday, talking like nothing else matters around them. They don't worry about anything. And when people talk bad behind them, they don't go round cursing them with swear words or cry in the girls' bathroom. They're great. And, to be honest, every time I think about them, I wish I was like them.

Criticism is actually helpful in life. Because it helps you to realize yourself on how you act around people or in what you do to get attention but most importantly, your attitude. Sure, it can be offending, when people point out your flaws, but think about it. Don't the criticisms make you think about how you've been acting lately? 'Cause it does that to me all the time. Although you make think some statements aren't true, it's like that to other people. You might not see it, but they do. They think of you that way.

What if you're going to a new school, and you act the way you act, e.g. like a bitch. What do you think people's first impressions of you are? Nice? Friendly? No! They'd think that you're some snobby rich kid from wherever the hell you came from. They'd think you'd pick friends, and to some people in the slightly lower class - no offense - you'd be some bitch who'd try her best to ruin their lives. Get what I mean? If you don't, sorry.

Point is, criticism is actually a good thing. It kinda makes you a better person, don't you think? (Have I said that already?) And yeah, you may think that the person who points out your flaws is not perfect himself, yet he talks like he's all perfect, and you're so imperfect. But is he right? That's what matters. Whether he's right about you or not. If he's wrong, point it out. But if he's right, and you're in denial, don't shout and scold him or anything, as he didn't do anything wrong, except pointing out your imperfections. Look on the positive side. Maybe he's trying to save you from utter embarrassment. Maybe he's trying to make you into a better person. Maybe so. Maybe not. You can never know. It can also be because he's embarrassed to be your friend. There are plenty of reasons why a person would point out your flaws. And to tell you the truth, it doesn't really matter. If he's doing it for your own good, then, he cares about you. He or she la, doesn't matter. If he's doing it to get out of embarrassment, then, he's just selfish, and you'd know better to not be friends with him.

When people criticize you, the criticism is about what they think of you. So, don't go crying on somebody's shoulder just because someone tried to help you turn out to be a better person. Promise me something. When the next person criticizes you, try to control your temper, and let him finish. Try to think of the positive side, instead of the negative. Just the next time around. On other times, you do what you want, for all I care.

One last thing, if you have ANYTHING to point out to me, about my flaws, you can. I won't be mad. I'll try, at least. I promise! And don't worry, I won't talk bad behind you. I'll think it, but hey, I'm just human! I'm mediocre. Maybe even less that than. Give me a chance, will you?

And to Haziq, and everybody that I lost my temper to for criticizing me, I'm sorry. Will you ever forgive me?