I wonder

I wonder how technology exist. I wonder how the television works. I wonder how they invent the light bulb or the computer or the electricity! I wonder how they can make video games. I wonder how cameras can take pictures.

I wonder if I could change the past. I wonder what it would be like if I was one of those quiet, really really smart people. I wonder what would happen if I wasn't in 6A last year. I wonder if I was never Lily's best friend. I wonder what I'd turn out to be if I was her best friend since Year 1. I wonder if I didn't go to that school. I wonder if I had gone to another school. What would I turn out to be? Would I be me, now? Would I have greater friends or lamer friends? But the past is the past. And, I'm glad of how the present is right now.

Since the past is the past, what about the future? Wonder what the future holds. I wonder what I'd be like. I wonder if I'd still be best friends with Raihah, Dina, Haziq or Taqi. I wonder what I'd turn out to be. One of those rich people who are popular or one of the "lame-os' who are actually the greatest people I've ever meet. I wonder if I'd be smart or dumb. I wonder what my friends would turn out to be. I wonder what tomorrow will be like.

I've always wondered what those popular, rich people think. Or what they talk about. Do they talk about craziness? Do they talk about tv shows? Songs? Gossips? Not that I'm saying they are bad people or anything, just that, I wonder these stuffs. But I have never had the courage to ask or hang with them. I wonder if they ever wonder what it is like to be friends with me or Raihah or Dina or the others. I wonder if they ever think of themselves as bad people. I wonder what it would be like to be one of them. I wonder what it would be like if I was one of them.

I wonder what people think of me. I wonder how many people like me or hate me. I wonder if I'm ever being loved. I wonder if people curse me behind my back. I wonder how many people would wanna be me. I wonder if my best friends hate me. I wonder what I did wrong to make people hate me. I wonder if anybody regretted being good friends with me. I wonder if my best friends know how much I care for them. I wonder if they know I'm grateful to have them in my life. I wonder if they know how much they had done for me. I wonder what they want in return.

I keep wondering these things. Although I seem like I want answers, I don't think I really do. I'm happy with my life. I'm glad of how things turn out. I'm glad of who my best friends are. I'm glad I have all these stuffs to wonder about when I'm bored. Truth is, I don't wanna change the past and I don't wanna know of how the future would turn out. All I know is that, I'm here to enjoy the present with my beloved friends and their craziness.

So, if you're not happy bout your life, just think of the good times. Think of how many people are lucky to have you as their friend. Just be satisfied about your life la. Maybe if the past wasn't great, there's still lots of years to come. To make your mistakes right. To be better. To not make the same mistakes. Love your life even if it sucks.