It's Hard

It's hard to do something when you don't know how to do it. It's hard to do something when you don't have the mood to do it. Like, homework. It's hard to do it when you're feeling lazy. It's hard to concentrate when you wanna do something else. It's hard to keep your eyes on the books when your mind is thinking about stuffs like, "Facebook" or "tv tv tv tv" or whatever else.

It's hard to be friends with such perfect people and knowing that you are not. It's hard to be hanging with them 24/7. It's hard to not hurt them. It's hard to make them happy. It's hard to just be yourself with them. It's hard to keep up with them. They are always smarter, better, awesome-er and all that. But sometimes, you just gotta ignore it and say, "whatever, they're my friends and no matter how perfect they are, they still except me for who I am". You don't really need to say it, but keep it in mind. And, competing with them will get you nowhere. Trust me. Maybe I'm the only one who feels like this, but, just expressing it.

It's hard when two or more guys like you because if you pick one of em, the others would be sad. It's harder when most of them are your best friends. It's hard when they want you to pick one of them. What if your heart belongs to someone else? I'm just saying what if okay? It's hard when after that, they go emo and stop treating you like the way they used to. It's hard when you know they curse you behind your back. It's hard to just accept those stuffs.

It's hard when you're mad and nobody who you can talk to is there at that particular moment. It's hard when you can't just blow everything to that person you're talking to. It's hard when your friends don't wanna hear it and doesn't help at all. It's hard when you feel so damn pathetic and sad and mad and all that at the same time. It's hard to accept the fact that some people are just like that. I mean, some people just say that you are snobby or a show off in front of your face and not think of how you feel. It's hard to think of how that person can live with his/her life like that. It's hard to just act normal when inside, you're actually feeling like you wanna slap that person in the face or kick the person in the butt. It's hard to stay cool and laugh it off when a person lies to you. It's hard to not kill them at the moment. It's hard to just forgive and forget when you're mad.

It's hard to be a good friend when that person doesn't want to be good friends with you. It's hard to make your friends happy when you're not good at it. It's hard to make them feel special. It's hard to keep that "Best Friend Ever" title. It's hard to earn it but it's easy to lose it. It's hard to think that he/she is your best friend ever but you are not his/hers. It's hard to make something special for them. It's hard to just.. make a smile appear on their face when they're in a bad mood. Especially when you know you can't do anything about it.

Everything in this world is just.... hard. You can't blame it on anyone although you don't think that you are the one to be blamed on. Maybe there's no one to be blamed in such situations. Sometimes, no matter how much it hurts, you just gotta accept it and let bygones be bygones. Forgive and forget about what has happened. Don't curse that person. Don't seek for revenge. Just... Don't! 'Cause, you know, you'll be just like that person. No matter how much it hurts, don't ever talk bad about that person.