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Nostalgia comes whenever it wants and when it does you can't do anything about it. Nanny McPhee said some really wise words, "when you need me and don't want me, I'll be there; when you don't need me and want me, I won't be there." I guess that applies to almost everything and everyone. I may have not realised it but maybe all those times I had everything was more because I needed it than I wanted it.

Daddy, perhaps you left us all because we didn't need you anymore. That sounds mean. But I mean, I think so, Allahualam, Allah knows best. I do miss you. I do wish we had spent more time together.

I have that problem. I don't appreciate people when they're around me; I tend to take them for granted and the aftermath is me regretting not going all out. But regrets are bad.

I miss a lot of things and I miss a lot of people. Things I wish I'd done, words I wish I'd spoken, they never made it out of my nervous system or my vocal cords.