So Much For My Happy Ending

WARNING: There are sort of mean things. Get out before you're too late.

Endings. Ever thought about them? Lately, I've been making up endings in my head, who I'm gonna end up with, what he'll be like. Not so far, until who I'm gonna marry, but just, who I'm gonna end up with at the end of this year or something. I mean, I've read books and they all sort of have the same endings.

This girl likes this guy who she thinks is so amazing and wonderful. Next, she meets another guy, who goes through everything with her, her heartbreaks, funny moments, everything, and he starts falling for her. And then, she realizes that the amazing and wonderful guy is just in her head, and that he's actually a jerk to her, because he has this other girl he's in love with or something. She starts falling for the other guy and they live happily until their break up, which the writer doesn't usually add in, because it's a happy ending.

Well, that's a situation where there are two guys in the picture. And the girl never expected that she would fall for the other guy.

In my case, I HAVE ALREADY MADE UP EVERY POSSIBLE ENDING. So, it's like, I'm expecting something to happen. Any one of three situations.

Oh next situation is that, her best friend, this guy she fell for, is in love with her good friend. And then this other guy falls for her, and they got close. But soon, the best friend broke up with his girlfriend or lover or whatever, because he realized that she's not what he likes, and he goes to her, the main person.

But that's less likely to happen.

AND the third situation is that, when all the drama ends, she doesn't end up with any of them, and they're just her past. She gets new friends and a new crush/lover.

So it's kind of just a matter of time till one of those three situations happen to me. To be honest, I'm scared. Of any of those endings. I don't really know why. Okay, maybe I do. First situation, I don't wanna end up with the other guy. It's not that he's bad or an ass or anything, just that, I don't know. I don't want to. That's it. I mean, there are some things you don't mind getting and some things you don't want, and it's just a thing that I do not want. Second situation is that, IF he ever falls back for me, I don't think he'll ever admit it, 'cause me and his lover, we're sort of, I repeat, SORT OF, close. You know, girl code. Meh. Third situation, I don't wanna lose that guy I like, because he's ALMOST as perfect as my dream guy.

Ugh, after my ex-boyfriend drama, I thought I'd be this hippie sort of person, no stress and all, because there was just so much drama. And now it's worse.