Haziq and Amil. Wow.

Baby, I love you.

Like, OH MY GOD !! WE'RE TOGETHER?! I mean, like, who could ever thought THAT would happen? Fine, most of the people. But, I didn't ! Well, I didn't expect it, but I did thought of how it would be like if we were together. Oh wait, did I tell you that I'm talking about me and Haziq? Yes, Haziq, the big headed alien who used to JUST be my best friend. No offense, Haziq. I don't know why, but, I just still can't believe it really happening sometimes. It just feels unreal.

Never, in my thirteen year old life did a guy that I like, likes me back. Well, at least not when I like them. So, it's like, unreal and just.. WOW ! The only explanation. I think I'm really shocked because he used to be just my friend. I still don't get how people (and him) had expected us to be together. Do we reaaaaally act as if we were a couple even before we were? Wait, so, killing him and him teasing me are what couples do? I've got A LOT to learn.

Haziq is the most caring, sweetest, most romantic boyfriend ever in the history of the most caring, sweetest, most romantic boyfriends. He said he daydreams that we're at a park, under a tree and all that. I freeze every time he says that. The first time he said it, I was like, I couldn't breathe. It was so sweet how he said it. It feels like I was not in this world. As if I was flying to another planet.

I never really thought that I'd be one of those girls who melts when he says, "I love you", freezes when he says something sweet. I never really thought I could be in this lovey-dovey scene with the guy I love. I never really thought that this kind of thing would ever happen to me. Last month, it just seemed impossible. Now, it's happening. Weird...

When I chat with him, I feel like there's just the two of us in this world. I know that's not true. That's why I always like, try to keep myself from thinking that. It's not that what we chat about is so special. It's just that it's fun to chat with him. To be able to communicate. And it's good that we don't just chat about our relationship. Not that I hate it. It's just like, if you talk about the same stuff over and over again, people will get bored. So, even if what me and Haziq chat about are stupid and mean stuffs, at least we don't talk about the same stuff over and over again. There are those occasional awkward silences though. That usually happens when I freeze and all my brain could process at that moment is "AAAAAAAAHHHHH" xD.

I know that our relationship is almost a month, but it's just that, it's hard to believe. You'd probably be like me if you were in my situation. Imagine, six months ago, you were just friends. Then, a month later, you're in a relationship with each other. Isn't it like, weird? I mean, you need time to adapt to the situation. But the weird thing is that, when I chat with him, I totally forget about this. TOTALLY! This is what boy charms can do to girls.

I don't know about him but I still get that fluttery feeling in my heart when I think about him or see him around. I still get those 'my heart skipped a beat' moments when I remembered a random fact about him. I still smile uncontrollably when I catch him looking at me during assemblies. I still feel like I can't breathe whenever he pops into my mind all of a sudden or when he says, "I love you". I still feel like as if I could fly just being around him. I guess I'm the luckiest girl in this world to have him as my boyfriend. I have never met anyone as perfect as him. He is like, the best.

Of course, there are some things I don't tell him. Well, not some. There are a lot about me that I didn't tell him. But I don't think he'll wanna listen anyway. There are also some stuffs about him that I know about from some friends from his primary school that I don't think he knows I know.

If you'd ask me to list fifty random facts about him, I bet I could do it. But I don't think so what I write about him is 100% true. It's not that I am obsessed with him or anything, it's just that, when he says something about him, it's just stuck in my head. I just don't forget stuffs about people I love that easily. (Or the people I hate). And besides, sometimes, when I'm thinking about something that bores me, one of our chats came flashing back to my mind. There's no way I could forget what he said.

Honestly, I still have some doubts. Not that I don't trust him. It's just that, there's something he said a month ago that keeps bothering me. Oh God. I even cried a bit thinking about it the other day in the hall, where there were lots of people. Ish. I hope nobody noticed. But.. I guess it's just in my mind. So, I just should stop thinking about it and everything's gonna be good, I guess.

Darling, I hope you'll be mine forever. I don't think I can live without you in my life. I'd never do anything to hurt you. If I did, I'm sorry. Really, I am. If I did anything wrong or make you sad or mad, I'm sorry. If I do something you don't like, please tell. And I got to tell you something. I really really really love you. <3