Expect the Unexpected

If you still remember, me and Lisa had a fight about someone a few months ago. And like, after that, we never really talked to each other. Well, not much anyway. Then, there was this hating each other part and all that. Until yesterday...

Ever since the birthday thingy, I never really talked to her, or make eye contact with her or anything. I run away from her every time she comes near. I avoided talking to her when I really wanted to give her a piece of my mind. I tried to annoy her by hanging in front of her class. When I started thinking about it again, it's kinda really funny. I mean, like, I'm heading to this place, then, when I see her there, I run away. I knew that she wasn't gonna like, you know, make me suffer or anything, I just felt like I needed to be far away from her for some reason, and now, I'm laughing at how stupid I was.

So anyway, yesterday, something happened. Something REALLY unexpected. I was facebooking, as usual, when suddenly, Lisa said, "Hello amilah". I was like, That's freaky. Did I do something wrong? What did I do wrong? I replied. Weirdly, we were chatting like we're normal friends. We were talking about Tumblr and how funny the pictures in it are and all that when suddenly, she asked about my blog. I said that I changed the url and all to keep my sister from reading it. I gave her the new url. She read about the post I posted about my birthday. She said it wasn't her who made the song about me. She just sang along with it. Somehow, I believed her and I wasn't curious of who made it. I just apologized. Then I told her that I was kinda scared to go near her and all that and she laughed or something, which made me realise of how stupid that was. I mean, running away from her, not telling her la. Like she said, it's not like she eats people. I was actually scared because I thought I might say something bad to her and if she tells her mom, I'd be in trouble. Then she told me that she tells her mom stuffs because she can talk to her without her dumping her or something like friends do. And she just feels comfortable. It's not like, she tells her mom stuffs and her mom will call the principal and I'll get in trouble. So, like, wow. Everything I thought was actually wrong. Before she told me that, I thought when she tells her mom stuffs, her mom would tell the teachers and do this and that and I'd be in trouble and blah blah. Expect the unexpected. What I thought was wrong. Way wrong.

Then, the chat went on. She told me that she had a dream the other day. About her re-doing everything or something. It was a few weeks after she got in SAB. She went to Puan Foo a bit late and she would've got in Syahbandar instead of Bendahara. And then, we'd all go marching together and all. And her, me and Haziq would have hung out together and the whole fight was never to happen. Wait, maybe that's her daydream. Or maybe her daydream was this. She was still in Bendahara. When Haziq gave her the note about him liking Nadhrah, she would just laugh it off and agreed with me that it was just his heart. And she would have not broken up with Haziq until he says so. And all the fighting stuffs would have never happened. We'd never have become enemies. Wait, I think I got everything mixed up. I don't know la. It's something like that.

But then again, if that fight were never to happen, all of this would never happen. So, it was kind of a good thing AND a bad thing. But it happened already, so, there's no way to fix it. I'm guessing she regretted the fight. Not that I'm saying I don't. 'Cause I do. A lot. I kind of realised everything now. If she didn't care of what I think, she would have never got mad when I said her braces are ugly, which they aren't really, 'cause, well, let's face it. Everything on her, even if it's clown make-up, she'll look pretty. If she was really over me, as in a best friend, not like lesbian partners, she'd never talk about me behind her back. She wouldn't have taken everything I said very seriously. Yeah, we're kinda the same. I mean, if I was over her, I wouldn't have cared that she curses me behind my back. I wouldn't have been scared to approach her. I would have blocked her in Facebook months ago. I wouldn't have posted so many blog posts about her if I didn't care. And sometimes, I kinda miss her and wished that I could just go to her and apologize.

I'm guessing we're friends now? I kinda need somebody to talk to about boys and all that. Well, I do have Double D.. but, it's like... I don't know. Since the last time I talked to Lisa, it was mostly about boys and she reaaaally knows a lot. It's kinda fun. I wonder if we'd be like old times. Everyday, after school, I'd be calling her and we'd be on the phone talking about stuffs for over an hour. Okay, this is random. I just remembered that her favourite drink is Iced Lemon Tea. That stuff keeps popping in my mind every time I drink em. And then, when I'm in bookstores, stuffs like, Lisa likes Jean Ure books and books like that la. Ish, weird facts.

I guess things do happen for a reason.

P/S: I'm sorry, Lisa.