Clinginess at its best

Am i that clingy? Did DD just retweeted all those tweets to make me feel better? Cause thats the good thing about her, she knows how to make people feel better. A lot better. But that's not the point. The point is.. Actually i dont know what the point it. I guess im just having my normal insecurities. 

Do you know that feeling where youre like you really dont wanna speak to someone just because but you keep wanting them to talk to you? I mean, thats weird isnt it? 

And how youve been trying to stop falling in love, to convince yourself that you and someone are not meant to be but then he shows more of himself and thats what you want and thats who you are and well shit just got worse? 

Do you ever forget who you are? And who you wanna be? Or what you wanna be? Or how you wanna be? Do you ever just get so caught in the moment, in the world, that you forget that a lot of other things matter more? Until you forget what you've learned and who you wanna become really and what the future would be like if youre like this or like that? 

Have you ever been in a situation so messed up that its not messed up at all? And have feelings so all over the place but just in one place? And think so much until you cant sleep at night but not think at all?

Am i making sense?

Of course i am, things wouldnt make sense if it werent any sense in writing them.

Yeah well that doesnt make sense.

But yeah, could what izz said be true? Im really that clingy? Because thats probably why things ended with me and him. And things ended with me and well everybody really. Cause im clingy?

I could name a whole bunch of people who are clingier than me, but truth be told, that wouldnt make me feel better. And some people would say that what does it matter if im clingy cause a lot of people still love me for who i am and yeah thatd make me feel better for about a day or two but then id still feel bad because i know for a fact that that is who i am and i honestly have no idea how to change that. 

And i hate that im not included in something. I hate that im not the most important and that im not as cool and that i dont get all the opportunities. But i know that thats just selfish of me cause i should be thankful for every little thing that i have because its more than enough. 

Ive got nothing better to do than just rant here because this is just too silly to be heard by anybody. 

To think that im extraordinary? Wow you must be delusional. 

You can be so much and you can act as whoever you want for any period of time youd like but you can never really escape who you actually are.