"Falling Apart"

Things don't last forever. I mean, no matter how much you think it will, how much you believe it will, they don't. At least, not in your teen years. And it is just so sad seeing something fall apart, even if it's not happening to you. Or maybe it's just me who feels that way. But that's not the point. Being sad and everything, that's besides the point. I don't know the actual point, but I think it's the story. After one thing ends, that's the end of the chapter. That's it, then. That person, the special person in that chapter, she's forgotten. She will be forgotten.

On one special day, it starts, and as the days go by, you fall for her more and more. Tried everything to make her feel the way you do. For months, it's complaining about the same things, asking, doubting. And then, it's a new year, and you've changed. I don't know in what way, but you have. You still talk the same way, you're still the same sort of unfriendly, talkative guy, but the change in you is so huge, I just... I can't put my finger on what it is. Now you're giving up on her. I mean, okay, maybe if I were you, I'd get tired of the same attitude for the past two thousand months, and I'd probably do the same thing you're doing. I don't blame you. I even think you should have done it sooner. But seeing two people part, after so long, after all of it, it's sad.

Maybe because I was there from the start. From when you weren't together yet. And I was there, listening to you about her, listening to my heart breaking, piece by piece. Then, when I realized how good you both were with each other, this happens. You're breaking up with her. Or well, thinking about it. Hahah, and I'm the one getting bummed out about it. Unbelievable. All this time, well, before this year, that's the one thing I wanted, and for you to see me the way you see her. But now, -not that you see me in that way- it's something that I don't want. But of course, it's not me who decides.

Hey, maybe things fall apart for some reason. And I shouldn't be sad about it, I'm not even in the situation. Feelings are un-explainable. Oh, maybe because everything in my life is not glued together, they're not going the way I want it to. And by that I mean my love life. So, it's nice to know that my two close friends are happy together in a relationship. But now that you're planning on letting her go, well.. that's a different story. We'll see in the next chapter I guess.