Say It Ten Million Times, It's Never Going to Work

Hey, am I really so annoying lately? I mean, most of the time I talk about Allah, my Lord, and when I'm with my friends, I keep telling them to go pray and all that. But when you think about it, if I don't, I'm the one who gets the sin, because I know it's wrong not to pray, and I don't say anything. It's one of the five pillars of Islam, how can you just be okay missing it?

Maybe I do talk too much about it. One of my friends, my dear friend, actually, and I don't know, I guess it hurt me a bit, said to me, "Amilah, I'm sorry, but, will you stop trying to be my ustazah? It's really annoying sometimes." I'm not quite sure about the last sentence, but she did say something. I just didn't wanna hear it. By the way, if I somehow have a stranger who is not from my country reader, ustazah is a teacher that teaches Islamic Studies. What she said made me think what I said up there. I don't blame her, I'm glad she said it to my face. It's just, now, I'm unsure of what I should say anymore. Because whatever it is that I say, they're not really my words. It's just true, so how am I supposed to.. Aah, I don't know what to say anymore D:

My teacher did say, that if you know something's wrong, you tell. If they don't listen, stop. It's all you can do. It's true what she said, you can really force people to do what you tell them to do. I've learned this thing so many times already, but every time I did, I'll forget. Put yourself in their shoes before saying anything about them. I hope this time I'll remember it always, Atticus Finch from my To Kill a Mockingbird book said, "The only way you can understand people is to put yourself in their shoes." I guess I'd hate it if someone tells me to do this and do that when I already know I've to do it. I just don't understand why people don't do what they have to do. It is what it is. Things are not gonna be my way with people. The world doesn't revolve around me.