Ramadhan! Let's Clean Our Hearts

Hey there! So, Ramadhan's just around the corner and I, for one, am excited for its arrival! I don't know what it is about Ramadhan but for some reason, I feel at peace knowing that it's coming very soon. Ramadhan is a month of fasting and it's basically about remembering Allah and increasing your iman. Forget the world for once and focus on yourself and your takwa. Okay, maybe after the trials, then focus on yourself >.> 

Yeaaah, I don't really know what I should say here so I'm just gonna share what is in my book ^^

In the month of Ramadhan, we are to clean up our hearts: forgive and forget, hope for Allah's forgiveness. 

• Taubah from the misuse of the tongue (stop swearing).
• Taubah from the sins of heart
• Taubah from lack of modesty (I need to do that)
• Taubah from all the time we waste (do more ibadahs!)
• Taubah from trying to please others at the expense of displeasing Allah (focus on Allah!).

Besides that, we are to increase our level of motivation by increasing our ibadahs.

• Increase Rawatib prayers (the ones before and after our fardhu prayers. Its, if I'm not mistaken, 2 before subuh; 4 before zohor, 2 after; 2 before Maghrib; 2 after Isha'.)
• Pray dhuha (in the mornings).
• Pray Tahajjud (before sahur!)
• Fast (duh)
• Stay up after Fajr to read the Quran (and read during every free time :>)
• Du'a on the last hour of Friday (from Asar to Maghrib. But I think this should be done everyday, preferably about ten minutes before breaking your fast)

We should yearn from Allah's rahmat. Um, consciously intending and desiring the forgiveness of all out past and recent sins. The Prophet (s) said, Whoever fasts Ramadhan with iman and ihtisab (seeking for Allah's reward) will be forgiven of all his previous sins.

Whoever fasts one day for the sake of Allah, Allah will place between him and the Fire (Jahannam) a ditch as large as the distance between the heavens and the earth.

Ramadhan has arrived to you, a month of barakah (blessings). Allah envelops you (with His mercy and blessings), so He descends His mercy (this part was underlined but I don't know why >.>), erases the sins, answers the du'as and He watched in (this month) your competition/race for goodness and He boasts to His angels. 

Fasting and the Quran will both intercede for the slave on the Day of Resurrection. 

Fasting is a shield. So if it is a day where one of you is fasting, then he should not fulfill his desires, nor sin, nor yell, nor behave ignorantly.

The most beloved deeds to Allah are the most consistent, even if it is little.

The closest that a slave is to his Lord is in the last part of the night. If you can be among thses who remember Allah at that hour, then do so. 

This probably has nothing to do with Ramadhan, but it's so cool I must share !
 Wudu'
-Gives you brightness on the Day of Judgment.
Your faces, hands and feet will be bright on the Day of Resurrection due to your perfect wudu'. So whoever is able, should increase the brightness of his forehead, hands and legs.
-Removal of sins.
When the Muslim slave of Allah makes wudu' and washes his face, every sin his eyes have seen will be removed from his face with the water, or with the last drop of water. And when he washes his hands, every sin his hand touched (or grabbed) will be removed with the water, or with the last drop of water. And when he washes his feet, every sin he walked to with his feet will be removed with the water, or with the last drop of water. Until he leaves it pure of all sins.


Rawatib
-House in Jannah.
No Muslim slave will pray for Allah 12 voluntary rakaahs every day - besides the obligatory prayers, except that Allah will build a house for him in Jannah.
-The Fire prohibited to touch him.
Whoever maintains 4 rakaahs before Zohor and 4 after it (Wait, I dunno if it's 4 or 2 after Zohor o.o Maybe two kot..) Allah will make the Hellfire haram for him.

Dhuha
-Our sedekah for the day.
Every day, each one of you owes charity for each joint of his body. And every tasbih is a sedekah, every tahmid is sedekah, every tahlil is a sedekah, every takbir is a sedekah, commanding good is a sedekah, prohibiting evil is a sedekah. But two rakaahs a person prays at the time of Dhuha will suffice all of that.
-Prayer of the Repentant (at the hottest time)
The prayer of the repentant takes place when the baby camels find the sand at its hottest. (Uh, i dont get this.)

Uh okay so like, you guys know right that on the last ten nights of Ramadhan, there's this one special night called the Lailatul Qadar? Yeaaah, JOIN ME IN STAYING UP ALL NIGHT AND DOING IBADAHS <3 ahahhaha how excited I am.

I think Ramadhan is for you to reevaluate yourself. Well, I need to do that. A lot. I mean, look at me now. I'm all messed up. I am so gedik and annoying and loud. I embarrass myself and my friends in public and I'm just so.. immature. Yeah, yeah that's just who I am. But I don't wanna be that person. The way I describe the "gedik girls" from upstairs is how I am right now. So I better change before I've gotten used to this me..

Living is for God, And Only Him.

How can you say earphones are your life?! Or anything for that matter, "They're the reason I wake up every morning." How can you use that for something not alive? Let it be 400 bucks, but that's not worth anything if you think deeply. You wake up the next morning because Allah wants to give you another chance to live, to right your wrongs, not because of some worthless earphones.

Shouldn't you know better? Okay, I haven't been the best servant lately to Him, but I don't say that I don't want to live anymore because my phone got stolen, or because my heart got broken. To be sad is one thing, but to make it as if it's God? That's just low, even for you. You can say I don't get it, cause you bought it with your own money and I've parents who buy me everything I want, but it still doesn't give you the right to say what you said. Nothing will ever give you the right to say that.

Things happen for a reason. Maybe you were too in love with that thing "that gives you the reason to live", that Allah wants you to see how little attention you've been paying to him. Maybe it's to make you pray more or read the Quran more, since Ramadhan's coming. Maybe He doesn't want you to waste your Ramadhan days listening to music and forgetting your prayers, just to make time pass.

I don't even know how I can look at you, it disgusts me somehow. Don't worry, you won't even notice me gone, you've got substitutes. Maybe she can agree with you that the earphones that are broken are your life, and without them, you're dead. That's her, not me.

When you've cleaned your soul, come find me. For now, I have to get away from you before I turn into you. You might be cool and awesome, but this world isn't everything. There's another life you need to think of, and I suggest you start now. Sorry for being harsh, but I've no idea how to say it.

8-year Olds, We All Are.

Immature is a person,

the heart impoison;

Be it for you,

It now breaks in two.

"Okay" is what I am,

I'll never be as good as them;

Hard as I try,

I'll only end up in a cry.

Best friend, best friend.

Why do you call me that?

For when the other comes,

The spotlight, dim it becomes.

Like I said,

"Okay" is what I am.

"Too busy" is a term,

Used by those who squirm;

For them you have time,

Time for me is a crime.

What is it about me?

Too young to love,

too fragile to hurt.

You, who comes and go,

who makes me glow;

Constantly breaking me heart,

To make us grow apart.

Stop, please. I beg you to stop. Immature as I am, I still think of things, especially these things. Tell me you still like me, tell me you want us together after the exams. Or not, stop. End it. Just come up to me and say, "it's over."

To let go is a step,

To hold on is a misstep.

What are your words over his?

I'll get over it eventually,

As long as the hold doesn't pull me back.

Birthdays, Birthdays !

Not that I expect any of you to get me what I'm gonna ask for, but take it as a clue of what I would want as my birthday present :). That is, if you are getting me one >.> Not that I mind! So, relax if you aren't.

And so the list starts..

1. A set of Lego.
2. A packet of chocolate/coffee macaroons from Harrods.
3. Cardigans. Not black or grey, maybe white or beige or brown, one that's soft and covers ze butt, and is plain!
4.  Stripy, colourful socks! :D Not knee length or ankle length though.
5. Pretty things :3
6. A box of Patchi's dark chocolates.
7. A notebook, a journal la. Um, paperluxe, like my normal ones. Or well, whatever journal with not so huge lines and white paper, and is easy to open and write on works. With a pretty cover, that is.
8. A pair of white jeans.
9. More scarves~ Selendangs, I mean. Not brown though, i have two of those ._.
10. Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet, the original play.
11. Food, omg im so hungry right now. A box of Beard Papa's vanilla cream puffs, just for moi !
12. A Bros bottle, with the new design, the pretty ones :>
13. A real piano.
14. Running shoes! Not from Adidas though, me no likey.
15. A bag, a small one where i can fit my purse and phone.
16. A Sophie Kinsella book. I think I just may fall in love with her now hahah.
17. To get away from all these cakes and forks, especially the tiramisu. The drama, not the people. But I guess the drama comes with the people, so the people jugak. Unless they wanna make me happy.
18. Oversize shades~
19. Perhaps a teddy bear. Or a bunny bear ?
20. Moisturizing hand lotion xD
21. THOSE CLARKS SANDALS, THEY ARE SO PRETTY WHY I NO HAVE MONEH?! :(
22. Baking tools, I miss baking :(
23. T-shirts, I still don't have a lot ._.
24. Anything cute.
25. Maped compass, the one with a pencil, i think it's 6.80.

You know, all these gifts might be on my wishlist, and if I do get them, I'd be so thrilled, no matter who it's from, and what it may be. But one thing that can't compete is you walking in the neighborhood with me; feeling as if I'm special again. Depends if I ever was, but yeah, that's kinda it. Like I said, I'm not expecting anything. Heck, I don't even expect you to remember my birthday. It'd just be great if you'd show me you still have feelings for me.. I guess I just miss you. And yes I know, you're never gonna see this and I'm just being as pathetic as ever writing this down, making it for you to read when you never will. Or even if you do, you wouldn't even care! Like how you ended the chat so fast, that's how we were.

And I Love You Till the End

I remember your smile as the evening sun shone on your face, 

I remember your laugh, your voice, 

The strength you had, holding me when I was falling,

Where had that all gone? 

Was I in a dream or was it real?

If I was, who is so cruel to get me out?

I wasn't a damsel in distress, I wanted to be in there,

I was enjoying every single moment I had with you,

You are like no other.

The circuits in our skins connected and burst,

Like fireworks on New Year's eve.

You, of all people, had managed to take my breath away,

Letting me go into that world, the world I fear,

The world of Love. 

My heart was content, 

It was pulling me, dragging me,

Not stopping til in my head there were only those three words,

"I love you." 

I love you. I love you will all my heart, 

I love you so that I knew.

I knew something was not right,

And I was not sure to love or to let go.

I held on. How stupid of me?

I should have let go, I should have told myself to enjoy Europe,

Because you have already slipped away from me,

Two weeks was too long.

Words are not heard, eyes are not seen,

Our skins touched, 

The electricity must have faded along with the feelings,

Hearts do know how to play games.

Is it over?

Just tell me if it is, 

I can't hold on to it much longer,

I am hanging on a tree branch,

I want to get off. 

It's okay if I am left,

It is always okay.

Love is just too good to be true,

Especially if you were me.

Sadness and happiness come and go,

Hearts pump fast and slow, 

To let go of someone you love,

Gives me a reason to start from up above.

I will fall into the arms of my knight in shining armor,

It is just not you. 

You, the one I fell in love with,

I can't be with you as much as I want to.

You don't feel the same way, I know.

Love you till the end - the Pogues

I.I.

The Adventures of Mixed Feelings, 

forever in my memories.