Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Consequences

Whenever you do something wrong, there's always gonna be consequences waiting for you. You can't just get out of it. 'Cause if you run away, it will get worse. So, it's better to just stick with it. Even if the consequence mean not getting to use your phone and the internet until you're 40. It's better to stick with it than making more trouble.

I lost my purse today. It's got my identification card in it. I stupidly carelessly, without thinking placed my purse on the table. When I went to the "toilet", it got lost. And tonight I told my mom. Yes, I was scared to death. I didn't wanna tell her. I didn't wanna get into trouble and stuff. But I did. I faced my fears and told her that I lost my purse. I got scolded, of course. But it's worth it. It was scary. But it certainly took out the feeling that was like, a big responsibility has been taken away from me.

The first step is to tell somebody that can help you even if the consequences of telling that person is really big.

Let's say you're doing this really bad thing. Something that can lead you to jail or in really big trouble. It started of for fun. Later, it became big. And you can't stop. Nobody knows about it and you're getting sick of doing it, but you just can't stop. I guess if you can't stop, you'd have to tell somebody, like your parents for instance. You know it will get you into really big trouble, but what can you do? It's the only way to stop. (I'm talking crap, I know)

Even if your parents scold you for doing mistakes, they'd still help you.

Don't run away from home if you're scared of taking the consequences about something you mess up. It's not like you're the only one who makes mistakes. Everybody does. It's just that, people learn from their mistakes. Maybe your parents scold you cause they did the same mistake when they were young and when you did it, it made them think of how stupid they were and all that.

Just think positively. If you can go through the mistakes you've made, surely you'll get through the consequences.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Pleasing People

There's something about me that I don't get. I can't see people sad or unsatisfied or disappointed! I'll be guilty, even though I didn't do anything wrong to them. And then, I'll be such a busy body and go to them and "try" to make things right. Which is not really right. It turns out worse!

You know how hard it is to please people? To make them happy? For example, this friend of yours wants you to carry his Science books up to class from the Science lab. You couldn't say "no", could you? And then, when his other friends asked you to take their books upstairs also cause they saw him asking you to put his books upstairs. Would you say no? I wouldn't. Even though it will be heavy. They'll be talking bad about me until I apologize and they'd tease that I like that one guy cause I carried his books.

Or when your best friend shows a paper she wrote about your boyfriend's best friend. Bad things. And then, the boyfriend tears up the paper. And she gets mad and sad and angry and upset and all those things. You wouldn't like it when your very best friend and boyfriend don't get along, would you? The two people you love are having a conflict. You have the feeling that you HAVE to do something. Well, at least I do. And when I did do something, like, making him apologize to her, she wouldn't listen, cause she was busy writing her choral speaking script and then, when she doesn't listen, he gets mad. And now both of them are mad. And I get the blame for everything!

Or when your friend doesn't wanna participate in a choral speaking and you force them to cause you're so psyched about winning this thing. And he shows you his bored are-we-done-here face to you. Won't you feel like, you've just made a mistake of pushing somebody into doing something they don't want to?

Lesson is, never try to do anything. Just stay idle. If it's your problem and you're involved in it, then you can do something. If you're just a middle person, don't get into any trouble. You'll just make it worse. Or at least I will.

Monday, October 18, 2010

I Was Forced To Go

I hate Sarawak. I just hate Sarawak. You know why? CAUSE IT'S DAMN BORING ! Here's my summary of my trip to Sarawak last weekend :

Friday
Went to the airport WAAAAAAAAAAAY too early =.=(my parents). We arrived at like, 5 and our flight was at 6.40 pm :|. Ate "tea" which is McDonald's fries and nuggets. And ice cream for dessert. Anyway, we got in the uhh, place an hour earlier since there was nothing there (KLIA IS FAR WAY BETTER!!). I just memorized my choral speaking script(THANK GOD I BROUGHT MY HOMEWORK) since there was nothing better to do.

My sister and I wanted to find those corn in cups thingy, so we walked to find it. Since we didn't find any, we stopped at the airport chocolate shop or something. We saw the packet of Mars Planet. IT WAS RM 36++! FOR ONE BAG ! Yes, it was big. BUT FOR ONE BAG IT COSTS THIRTY SIX BUCKS ! IN ENGLAND, YOU CAN GET TWO OF THOSE (a bit smaller in size) FOR ONE NINETY FIVE POUNDS ! FOR TWO ! WHICH IS LIKE, LESS than ten Ringgit here. THIS IS WHY ... WE HAVE TO GO TO ENGLAND FOR CHOCOLATES !

Anyway, the flight was delayed. Air Asia is stupid. Worst airline ever. Next time, I'm gonna make trouble if I have to ride that airplane!

We arrived at about 9 something. The hotel was good. I've seen better. And I'd rather stay at Hilton (which my dad already booked and somebody suddenly changed it =.=). But since it was an executive suite or whatever, it was good la. What got me excited was the two flat screen TV ! :D

Didn't bring my telekung, so I had to pray with a long sleeved shirt , my dad's kain (sorry, don't know it in English(YES, my English is bad. Keep it to yourself)) and my mom's shawl. Not to be vain, but I gotta say, I look pretty good in the shawl when it's wrapped around my head like a tudung.

Saturday
Breakfast report : I drank date juice. YUCK! IT WAS HORRIBLE ! Then, to get the taste out, I drank skimmed milk. YUCK-ER ! BAD IDEA ! Ate toast with scrambled eggs. Good thing they had bread. I'd die without em.

Went swimming at 10. Put extra protection (still, IM DARK NOW!). Swam for an hour. The swimming pool was small :|. I bet the one in Hilton is better -.-''.

Walked by the river bank. After 5 minutes, dad called for lunch. Went back to the hotel. Lunch was at a Chinese restaurant. I was excited when I saw the sign. But the food they served on the buffet table were "Rice" or "Asam Pedas Fish". HOW THE HECK IS THAT SUPPOSED TO BE CHINESE?! I just ate a plate of Salad and fruits. It's not even Caesar Salad =.=.

Started walking again at 3. Went to some weird museum. I don't know a thing! Suddenly my mom made me and my sister go to a museum. IT SUCKED ! THERE WAS NOTHING THERE! NO INFORMATION. NOT EVEN A TITLE OF WHAT THAT THING IS ! The stupidest museum I've ever been to. And it was really small. Could finish it in 15 minutes. If there is information, the English is wrong =.=. The museum in England is 1,000,000 times better. I couldn't even finish the whole museum even if I had 3 hours.

Walked by the river bank, trying to find the "river cruise". It departs hourly (thank God!), so my mom said no need to ride it. Walked all the way by the river bank. People there were weird. The girls la. When I walk by, they'd be looking at me and scanning me in their shocked + blur + sorta disgusted + don't-you-dare-steal-my-boyfriend faces. I was like, okaaaaaaay. Weird. Just walk quickly and you'll past trough them. It wasn't only a group of girls. But I don't know. It's like, most of the groups there. IT WAS SO WEIRD ! I ALMOST told my mom, but like she'll do anything and she'll say I'm overreacting or something.

Went to the other side of the river. I have no comment about the place.

I fell asleep after we got back. My ear was hurting (like the way it did in New York. I think I got the ear infection back. Maybe laa. But I refused to go check. It will only trouble my parents.), I had a headache and something was playing in my stomach. Like my intestines are turning around or something. But no way is that possible.

Had dinner at a restaurant on top of a building. When I saw the place, I was like, WOW! This is gonna be coooooooool! When I went upstairs (7 or 8 flights of stairs cause the lift wasn't working), the place was so... Not as I expected it to be. And they serve drinks with plastic cups -.-''. I just hate restaurants that do that.

Watched Poltergeist 3. Wasn't that scary. I just hate the fact that the ghost is from the mirror :|.

Sunday
Breakfast report : Heh, I don't bother. It sucked. But better than yesterday's since I made my breakfast from BLUEK to I'm satisfied.

Went on a road trip or whatever to somewhere outside of Kuching. One thing I hate about Malaysia and Indonesia (I've only visited two so far) is that their big shopping place is the streets. You get what I mean, right? The sort of dirty place on the road where they sell stuff. I noticed in mirrors that my face had a disgusted look on it. My feet hurt from the long walk on my mom's heels. To make it worse, the road was bumpy, which makes it harder to walk on the 2 1/2 inch heels. Curse it.

Went swimming again after we got back. I was forced to.

In the car to the airport, I was thinking, YES! GOING BACK TO KL ! OH MY GOD ! KUALA LUMPUR ! I HAVE JUST REALIZED HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU!!! I was thinking of putting that on my status. But then, I thought, I'd reach home at twelve and I'd surely be sleepy.

There was lightning and thunder when we were on the airplane. It sorta looked pretty from up above. Mostly scary. But pretty. I was really scared that time. But Alhamdulilah, we got home safely.

NOW YOU KNOW WHY I HATE SARAWAK !

Friday, October 8, 2010

Hang Outs

The fun thing about hang outs are that, you get to hang out with your friends.(DUHH) Like, doing other activities with them.. Forget it =.= Im skipping to the next paragraph.

Recently, Hidayah, Lily, Haziq, Sally, Sarah, Malik and I watched a movie at Wangsa Walk Mall. The mall was boring =.=. Nothing's there. The only fun thing was the movie. And Famous Amos. Even the bookstore is boring. Anyway, we watched Devil. We were supposed to watch Charlie St. Cloud, but Hidayah and Haziq changed the movie. They said Devil's better. I just followed them! INNOCENT ! The movie was sort of really scary. I mean, they got stuck in an elevator and a devil was with them. YIKES ! Try to imagine if you were one of them.

Hidayah was holding the bucket of popcorn Lily and me bought when we were entering the cinema. All of a sudden, the whole bucket was empty and a couple of chairs were full of popcorn. She accused Lily of pushing her and making her drop the whole bucket of popcorn. MAN ! IT WAS HILARIOUS ! My place and Haziq's place were covered with popcorn xD. But I swept it off with Dayah's help. The boys came in late. The seating was like, Malik, Sally, Sarah, Lily, Dayah, Me, Haziq. Oh, did I mention Sally and Sarah are a couple?

When the movie first started, Haziq put on his earphones =.=. The volume were really loud. I could hear it. Well, either that, or he didn't put it on tightly (or whatever the word is). When the scary part started, I held his hand :|. I KNOW ! EWW ! DON'T SAY IT ! Aaaaaaand, I sort of leaned on his shoulder. Nearly the last part, Hidayah poked me. Thank God I didn't scream. They were putting their feet up on the front seats cause nobody was there. I joined. But then, I got uncomfortable. When the really really scary part came, I think I sorta hugged Haziq. *Guilty* What could I do? I was scared! It was better than screaming out loud!

After the movie, we had lunch at Popeyes. It was good. Sort of. Me, Lily and Hidayah shared a meal. Which was really enough. Malik ordered a kiddie meal while Sally ordered a burger. He eats so fast. :| :| Haziq ate a Rotiboy. Sarah didn't eat anything, because she was on a diet cause she has a boyfriend noooow xD. So, we walked around here and there and blah blah. It was boring =.=. Oh, and Haziq lost his PSP in the cinema somewhere.

After Wangsa Walk, they all, excluding Malik, went to my house. Hidayah and Sarah were just at my house for a few minutes :(. Hidayah had to go home 'cause her grandmother was coming home and Sarah was catching a ride with her back home. So, it was just Sally, Haziq, me and Lily. We played Wii! Mariokart was awesome! Sally is really like a little kid. He's like this immature big kid. WHICH IS AWESOME ! Cause I don't really have that much immature friends. Just that, he swears a lot =.=. Really got on my nerves. Lily took a lot of videos and pictures. I'm sorta not allowed to upload them because they are sorta wild pictures and Haziq said if I do upload them, he won't be able to go to my house ever again. Sally said, he'll get scolded by his parents and stuff. It was sorta really boring at my house :| Didn't know what to do xD We played Are You Smarter Than A 5th Grader? We were all not smarter than a 5th grader :P. They all went home at 6.30-ish, leaving me all alone, scared of the olive eyed lady =.=.

Hang outs are great memories. So, I guess, it was a good day. Even though I got emotional and annoyed and stuff :P

Gangsters

I've just been informed that there was a big fight outside of SAB's compound. Well, not really, but I just heard the whole story. So, yeah, it's sorta the same thing. Hidayah told me that the boys from Dato' Lokman and Maluri were ganging up on SAB boys. I don't know what they were fighting about, but I guess it was pretty big, since when I went out of school, a few groups of boys were standing outside the walls, smoking cigarettes. It was pretty scary going through them.

I'm basically writing about this because.. well, I just don't get why there must be gangsters in this world =.=. Can't we just live peacefully? I know , I know. I'm writing like I'm a hippie and lame, but think about it. Would you want to live in a world with polluted air, people going in the hospital every two days and not have a peaceful night to sleep 'cause the boys would be riding their motorcycles noisily outside your houses? Or would you rather live in a world where you don't have to waste money on drugs and cigarettes and having a good night's sleep? I mean, doctors would be happy, 'cause they'd get a lot of patients and therefore, they'd be paid more, but, what if you were the one who gets injured?

I don't know if it's true, but all gangsters are the same. They even have their daily routine. They wake up in the morning and "go to school". Which really means going to an internet cafe nearby and watching porn on the internet. Then, in the afternoon, they'd call up their slutty girlfriends to hang out at some not really secluded place. They'd ask their girlfriends to wear slutty clothes and treat them like majesty. And they would smoke. When their cigarettes are all out, they'd fake their age and buy a new box at some drugstore, which has an idiotic cashier =.=. At night, they'd watch football at a Mamak restaurant and come home at 2 a.m. in the morning. When they get scolded by their parents or teachers, they'd take drugs to make themselves high.

So, how stupid are these people? I mean, if they get blacklisted from school, they won't have any future. No school would ever accept them as they would think that these kids are dangerous and they will damage their school's name or whatever. And, if they get into a fight, they themselves are gonna get hurt. You don't learn from mistakes. Well, you do. But in this case, you should prevent it. There's a saying about this. Prevention is better than cure. What if you get into a fight and you break your legs and you're paralyzed for the rest of your life? Won't you miss a lot? What if something got into your eyes and you got blind? You won't get to see anybody or anything ever again. Even if they are rich, anything could happen. I mean, what if suddenly, their fathers' business go down? They won't have anything to support their lives.

Why can't they be good kids? Not really good kids. But, like those kids who obey their parents, do their homework, try to avoid getting into any trouble and I don't know, stay and home after school and just chat with their friends on Facebook? I mean, I know it sounds lame, but, it's better than being one of those other people. At least they have a bright future. Even if they are not smart, they might have other talents that could make them successful in life. If not in life, then, the afterlife. I know, outta the topic.

Uhh, I guess that's probably all. SERIOUSLY, BEING GOOD IS BETTER THAN BEING BAD ! EVEN IF IT MAKES YOU LAME ! =.=