Okay, I got bored of studying so I went to Lisa's blog to see if she had post something new. Then, I remembered the conversation of my cousin and I about some mutual friends and the fight. Since I had nothing to do, I scrolled down Lisa's blog and I finally found the post.
As I read the first paragraph, my stomach twisted, felt agony in my heart. I stopped. I can't bear to read another sentence. It's too hard. Now, I'm sitting in front of this laptop, eating an Oreo, cursing myself for ever going to her blog. I can't concentrate anymore. It's weird how one's writing can leave another wondering for hours.
What should I do? Should I call her? Can't I just let this go? Is it so hard? I mean, I have other friends, why do I need to think about this for so long? It's not like she cares or anything, right? Wait, she doesn't. Right? What if she does? Would I know? Why am I so freaked out about it? Can't I just pick up the phone and dial her number? It's an easy thing to do. What if she doesn't pick up? I wonder if she still thinks about this. Did she really forgive me? Or did she not? Is that why she doesn't reply my Hi's and Bye's?
Reading back all her posts just makes me sad. Did I really do that? How can I be so stupid? All of these months, she has helped me and all and I repay her with this? :(
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
The Way I See It : School
In school, we learn stuff. We make friends. We go to school 5 days in a week. Okay, everybody knows that. Sheesh. I’m not good at doing the first paragraph. Can I skip it? Yes, yes I can. It’s my blog :P.
There will always be those popular people and those lame people in school. And then, there’s always that one kid who always gets into trouble. There’ll always be at least one good kid who finishes his/her homework and get straight A’s in exams. There’ll always be this one class that’s packed with perfect students. There’s always this one group of people that stays positive no matter how lame they are. Then, there’s always this one group of boys that are bad. In any school, there will always be groups like that. It’s just.. natural in some way.
About those popular girls… Are they really as bad as the people on Tv shows? Are they really mean? Do they really look down on lame people? I don’t really think so. I used to hang with them and they weren’t really that bad. Okay, fine. I admit, they weren’t really my type of people. I mean, I don’t really fit in with them. I don’t really know why. They’re the kind of people who are rich and smart and all that. And I’m not. I’m just not. It’s not that I’m describing them in a bad way. They’re nice la of course. It’s just me. I just don’t get them. But it’s great that they have their own way of speaking, of telling them they love each other, of making each other feel special, of fighting and forgiving. Sure, they are gedik but they’re also human. And, everybody can be friends with them. Just stop with the negativity. But then, they don’t really accept people who are lame in their group. Maybe they do, but to me, seems like they don’t. Popular people and lame people can’t mix with each other. At least, the way I see it.
Since the popular people are nice, what about the lame people? Aren’t they nice? Aren’t they cool in their own way? Well, actually, they are. They’re both nice and cool. Like the popular people, they have their own ways of talking. Just that, they’re a bit different. They make jokes a lot. They talk about not important stuffs. They don’t share the latest gossip. Okay, maybe they do. But only some of the times. They have nicknames for everyone. Weird ones. They don’t tell each other that they love one another but I bet they know that each of them are grateful to have each other as friends and they love each other. It’s just that, they don’t show it for some reason. Most of them are not matured yet. That’s the best part. To me, mature people laugh less. You would not believe how many times a day they break their laugh box xD. And, actually, they’re not lame at all. People just look down on them. But then again, they don’t really like being friends with the popular people la. That, I don’t know why.
Fights. We all have fights. Some people just have small fights and some people have really big ones. Fights happen because people do not want to give up(my definition :P :P :P). The last big fight I was in was with Lisa. It was more like, popular girls versus lame people. Just by that statement, you can guess who won, right? I mean, of course la the popular girls won because they have more people in their group and the lame people don’t really have that many. Sometimes I flashback to that time. I don’t know why. I mean, I really want to stop thinking about it. I mean, it happened already. But like, I just can’t let it go. Sometimes I wonder, do they think they’re the only ones who can’t let it go? But I don’t talk about it la. I just solve everything in my mind. I don’t want to offend others. And yeah, they say they forgive, but do they really? Sometimes, I think it’s just not sincere. Or maybe they just ignore my “hi’s” and “bye’s” because they’re just getting me back. But then, who am I to say that? So, now, I don’t bother to say “hi” or “bye” to them anymore knowing they won’t even reply.
And then, the boys. Boys are really cool people. I like hanging out with boys. Somehow, they do not get all upset and emotional when girls get mad at them. Some boys understand everything girls say. So like, it’s fun being around people who understands you. Sometimes, when in a bad mood and your best friends can’t help you, boys are useful. They’ll make jokes about what you did and you’ll get irritated but at the same time, you’ll feel better. I guess the boys have this weird magical thing that makes them fun.
Crushes. We all get crushes when we’re in school. Boys will like girls and girls will like boys. A crush is like a feeling you get when you like somebody. At least, I think so. Well, that’s my definition of crush. Anyway, when we like somebody, of course we won’t tell them. But for me, when I have a crush on someone, a part of me want them to know. But I don’t want them to know from me. Like, they just know. I don’t want them to be my boyfriend or anything, just friends and nothing more. But then, that’s me. What about everybody else? I don’t think they want people to know who they like. Having a crush on somebody is really fun. For me la, I like it. It’s like, enjoy it while it lasts ‘cause it’s not forever.
The teachers. Some teachers are really cool and some are just a pain in the ass but they’re our teachers and we have to respect them. (Look who’s talking) Have you realized that every time after a teacher leaves the classroom, the room suddenly turned into a zoo. Then, a teacher from the next class will come in and scold us and then, we’d be quiet for 10 seconds and be noisy again. It’s just the way students live in classrooms. It’s like, their own room with more friends and less decorations(or colour or furniture or whatever). And every time we see a discipline teacher, the girls who have fringes would be all, “Quick quick! I need a clip!!” and all the boys would be.. Wait, I don’t know what the boys do when they see a discipline teacher. It’s always like that. So silly.
In every school, there will always be homework. I hate homework! They make me stressed out! Maybe not just me, maybe it’s everybody. Sometimes I think the teachers just give us homework to make us suffer but I know it’s for us. To get smarter and stuff. Although the subjects like, Civics, Art, ICT and all that are useless but actually, I understand why we need to learn them. We learn Civics because it teaches us to be a civilized person. Art, we learn all those garisans and stuffs, it’s so that we know how to draw or something in the future later. Okay, that doesn’t really make sense. But, ICT, I don’t get why we need to learn it.
So like, school is actually a great place. Even with all the stressing out and evil teachers and popular girls, lame people, boys… Think about it, school is really a great place. I mean, how else did you meet your friends if it wasn’t for school? Would you have your best friends now? Would you have learned about people and their cultures or how they speak and stuff? Would you be as smart as you are now? No, right? So like, be grateful that you went to school. And, don’t hate school. Even if it sucks. Just think positively. If you’re not comfortable, sooner or later, you’ll adapt to the situation. Or whatever.
There will always be those popular people and those lame people in school. And then, there’s always that one kid who always gets into trouble. There’ll always be at least one good kid who finishes his/her homework and get straight A’s in exams. There’ll always be this one class that’s packed with perfect students. There’s always this one group of people that stays positive no matter how lame they are. Then, there’s always this one group of boys that are bad. In any school, there will always be groups like that. It’s just.. natural in some way.
About those popular girls… Are they really as bad as the people on Tv shows? Are they really mean? Do they really look down on lame people? I don’t really think so. I used to hang with them and they weren’t really that bad. Okay, fine. I admit, they weren’t really my type of people. I mean, I don’t really fit in with them. I don’t really know why. They’re the kind of people who are rich and smart and all that. And I’m not. I’m just not. It’s not that I’m describing them in a bad way. They’re nice la of course. It’s just me. I just don’t get them. But it’s great that they have their own way of speaking, of telling them they love each other, of making each other feel special, of fighting and forgiving. Sure, they are gedik but they’re also human. And, everybody can be friends with them. Just stop with the negativity. But then, they don’t really accept people who are lame in their group. Maybe they do, but to me, seems like they don’t. Popular people and lame people can’t mix with each other. At least, the way I see it.
Since the popular people are nice, what about the lame people? Aren’t they nice? Aren’t they cool in their own way? Well, actually, they are. They’re both nice and cool. Like the popular people, they have their own ways of talking. Just that, they’re a bit different. They make jokes a lot. They talk about not important stuffs. They don’t share the latest gossip. Okay, maybe they do. But only some of the times. They have nicknames for everyone. Weird ones. They don’t tell each other that they love one another but I bet they know that each of them are grateful to have each other as friends and they love each other. It’s just that, they don’t show it for some reason. Most of them are not matured yet. That’s the best part. To me, mature people laugh less. You would not believe how many times a day they break their laugh box xD. And, actually, they’re not lame at all. People just look down on them. But then again, they don’t really like being friends with the popular people la. That, I don’t know why.
Fights. We all have fights. Some people just have small fights and some people have really big ones. Fights happen because people do not want to give up(my definition :P :P :P). The last big fight I was in was with Lisa. It was more like, popular girls versus lame people. Just by that statement, you can guess who won, right? I mean, of course la the popular girls won because they have more people in their group and the lame people don’t really have that many. Sometimes I flashback to that time. I don’t know why. I mean, I really want to stop thinking about it. I mean, it happened already. But like, I just can’t let it go. Sometimes I wonder, do they think they’re the only ones who can’t let it go? But I don’t talk about it la. I just solve everything in my mind. I don’t want to offend others. And yeah, they say they forgive, but do they really? Sometimes, I think it’s just not sincere. Or maybe they just ignore my “hi’s” and “bye’s” because they’re just getting me back. But then, who am I to say that? So, now, I don’t bother to say “hi” or “bye” to them anymore knowing they won’t even reply.
And then, the boys. Boys are really cool people. I like hanging out with boys. Somehow, they do not get all upset and emotional when girls get mad at them. Some boys understand everything girls say. So like, it’s fun being around people who understands you. Sometimes, when in a bad mood and your best friends can’t help you, boys are useful. They’ll make jokes about what you did and you’ll get irritated but at the same time, you’ll feel better. I guess the boys have this weird magical thing that makes them fun.
Crushes. We all get crushes when we’re in school. Boys will like girls and girls will like boys. A crush is like a feeling you get when you like somebody. At least, I think so. Well, that’s my definition of crush. Anyway, when we like somebody, of course we won’t tell them. But for me, when I have a crush on someone, a part of me want them to know. But I don’t want them to know from me. Like, they just know. I don’t want them to be my boyfriend or anything, just friends and nothing more. But then, that’s me. What about everybody else? I don’t think they want people to know who they like. Having a crush on somebody is really fun. For me la, I like it. It’s like, enjoy it while it lasts ‘cause it’s not forever.
The teachers. Some teachers are really cool and some are just a pain in the ass but they’re our teachers and we have to respect them. (Look who’s talking) Have you realized that every time after a teacher leaves the classroom, the room suddenly turned into a zoo. Then, a teacher from the next class will come in and scold us and then, we’d be quiet for 10 seconds and be noisy again. It’s just the way students live in classrooms. It’s like, their own room with more friends and less decorations(or colour or furniture or whatever). And every time we see a discipline teacher, the girls who have fringes would be all, “Quick quick! I need a clip!!” and all the boys would be.. Wait, I don’t know what the boys do when they see a discipline teacher. It’s always like that. So silly.
In every school, there will always be homework. I hate homework! They make me stressed out! Maybe not just me, maybe it’s everybody. Sometimes I think the teachers just give us homework to make us suffer but I know it’s for us. To get smarter and stuff. Although the subjects like, Civics, Art, ICT and all that are useless but actually, I understand why we need to learn them. We learn Civics because it teaches us to be a civilized person. Art, we learn all those garisans and stuffs, it’s so that we know how to draw or something in the future later. Okay, that doesn’t really make sense. But, ICT, I don’t get why we need to learn it.
So like, school is actually a great place. Even with all the stressing out and evil teachers and popular girls, lame people, boys… Think about it, school is really a great place. I mean, how else did you meet your friends if it wasn’t for school? Would you have your best friends now? Would you have learned about people and their cultures or how they speak and stuff? Would you be as smart as you are now? No, right? So like, be grateful that you went to school. And, don’t hate school. Even if it sucks. Just think positively. If you’re not comfortable, sooner or later, you’ll adapt to the situation. Or whatever.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
It's Hard
It's hard to do something when you don't know how to do it. It's hard to do something when you don't have the mood to do it. Like, homework. It's hard to do it when you're feeling lazy. It's hard to concentrate when you wanna do something else. It's hard to keep your eyes on the books when your mind is thinking about stuffs like, "Facebook" or "tv tv tv tv" or whatever else.
It's hard to be friends with such perfect people and knowing that you are not. It's hard to be hanging with them 24/7. It's hard to not hurt them. It's hard to make them happy. It's hard to just be yourself with them. It's hard to keep up with them. They are always smarter, better, awesome-er and all that. But sometimes, you just gotta ignore it and say, "whatever, they're my friends and no matter how perfect they are, they still except me for who I am". You don't really need to say it, but keep it in mind. And, competing with them will get you nowhere. Trust me. Maybe I'm the only one who feels like this, but, just expressing it.
It's hard when two or more guys like you because if you pick one of em, the others would be sad. It's harder when most of them are your best friends. It's hard when they want you to pick one of them. What if your heart belongs to someone else? I'm just saying what if okay? It's hard when after that, they go emo and stop treating you like the way they used to. It's hard when you know they curse you behind your back. It's hard to just accept those stuffs.
It's hard when you're mad and nobody who you can talk to is there at that particular moment. It's hard when you can't just blow everything to that person you're talking to. It's hard when your friends don't wanna hear it and doesn't help at all. It's hard when you feel so damn pathetic and sad and mad and all that at the same time. It's hard to accept the fact that some people are just like that. I mean, some people just say that you are snobby or a show off in front of your face and not think of how you feel. It's hard to think of how that person can live with his/her life like that. It's hard to just act normal when inside, you're actually feeling like you wanna slap that person in the face or kick the person in the butt. It's hard to stay cool and laugh it off when a person lies to you. It's hard to not kill them at the moment. It's hard to just forgive and forget when you're mad.
It's hard to be a good friend when that person doesn't want to be good friends with you. It's hard to make your friends happy when you're not good at it. It's hard to make them feel special. It's hard to keep that "Best Friend Ever" title. It's hard to earn it but it's easy to lose it. It's hard to think that he/she is your best friend ever but you are not his/hers. It's hard to make something special for them. It's hard to just.. make a smile appear on their face when they're in a bad mood. Especially when you know you can't do anything about it.
Everything in this world is just.... hard. You can't blame it on anyone although you don't think that you are the one to be blamed on. Maybe there's no one to be blamed in such situations. Sometimes, no matter how much it hurts, you just gotta accept it and let bygones be bygones. Forgive and forget about what has happened. Don't curse that person. Don't seek for revenge. Just... Don't! 'Cause, you know, you'll be just like that person. No matter how much it hurts, don't ever talk bad about that person.
It's hard to be friends with such perfect people and knowing that you are not. It's hard to be hanging with them 24/7. It's hard to not hurt them. It's hard to make them happy. It's hard to just be yourself with them. It's hard to keep up with them. They are always smarter, better, awesome-er and all that. But sometimes, you just gotta ignore it and say, "whatever, they're my friends and no matter how perfect they are, they still except me for who I am". You don't really need to say it, but keep it in mind. And, competing with them will get you nowhere. Trust me. Maybe I'm the only one who feels like this, but, just expressing it.
It's hard when two or more guys like you because if you pick one of em, the others would be sad. It's harder when most of them are your best friends. It's hard when they want you to pick one of them. What if your heart belongs to someone else? I'm just saying what if okay? It's hard when after that, they go emo and stop treating you like the way they used to. It's hard when you know they curse you behind your back. It's hard to just accept those stuffs.
It's hard when you're mad and nobody who you can talk to is there at that particular moment. It's hard when you can't just blow everything to that person you're talking to. It's hard when your friends don't wanna hear it and doesn't help at all. It's hard when you feel so damn pathetic and sad and mad and all that at the same time. It's hard to accept the fact that some people are just like that. I mean, some people just say that you are snobby or a show off in front of your face and not think of how you feel. It's hard to think of how that person can live with his/her life like that. It's hard to just act normal when inside, you're actually feeling like you wanna slap that person in the face or kick the person in the butt. It's hard to stay cool and laugh it off when a person lies to you. It's hard to not kill them at the moment. It's hard to just forgive and forget when you're mad.
It's hard to be a good friend when that person doesn't want to be good friends with you. It's hard to make your friends happy when you're not good at it. It's hard to make them feel special. It's hard to keep that "Best Friend Ever" title. It's hard to earn it but it's easy to lose it. It's hard to think that he/she is your best friend ever but you are not his/hers. It's hard to make something special for them. It's hard to just.. make a smile appear on their face when they're in a bad mood. Especially when you know you can't do anything about it.
Everything in this world is just.... hard. You can't blame it on anyone although you don't think that you are the one to be blamed on. Maybe there's no one to be blamed in such situations. Sometimes, no matter how much it hurts, you just gotta accept it and let bygones be bygones. Forgive and forget about what has happened. Don't curse that person. Don't seek for revenge. Just... Don't! 'Cause, you know, you'll be just like that person. No matter how much it hurts, don't ever talk bad about that person.
Friday, May 21, 2010
I wonder
I wonder how technology exist. I wonder how the television works. I wonder how they invent the light bulb or the computer or the electricity! I wonder how they can make video games. I wonder how cameras can take pictures.
I wonder if I could change the past. I wonder what it would be like if I was one of those quiet, really really smart people. I wonder what would happen if I wasn't in 6A last year. I wonder if I was never Lily's best friend. I wonder what I'd turn out to be if I was her best friend since Year 1. I wonder if I didn't go to that school. I wonder if I had gone to another school. What would I turn out to be? Would I be me, now? Would I have greater friends or lamer friends? But the past is the past. And, I'm glad of how the present is right now.
Since the past is the past, what about the future? Wonder what the future holds. I wonder what I'd be like. I wonder if I'd still be best friends with Raihah, Dina, Haziq or Taqi. I wonder what I'd turn out to be. One of those rich people who are popular or one of the "lame-os' who are actually the greatest people I've ever meet. I wonder if I'd be smart or dumb. I wonder what my friends would turn out to be. I wonder what tomorrow will be like.
I've always wondered what those popular, rich people think. Or what they talk about. Do they talk about craziness? Do they talk about tv shows? Songs? Gossips? Not that I'm saying they are bad people or anything, just that, I wonder these stuffs. But I have never had the courage to ask or hang with them. I wonder if they ever wonder what it is like to be friends with me or Raihah or Dina or the others. I wonder if they ever think of themselves as bad people. I wonder what it would be like to be one of them. I wonder what it would be like if I was one of them.
I wonder what people think of me. I wonder how many people like me or hate me. I wonder if I'm ever being loved. I wonder if people curse me behind my back. I wonder how many people would wanna be me. I wonder if my best friends hate me. I wonder what I did wrong to make people hate me. I wonder if anybody regretted being good friends with me. I wonder if my best friends know how much I care for them. I wonder if they know I'm grateful to have them in my life. I wonder if they know how much they had done for me. I wonder what they want in return.
I keep wondering these things. Although I seem like I want answers, I don't think I really do. I'm happy with my life. I'm glad of how things turn out. I'm glad of who my best friends are. I'm glad I have all these stuffs to wonder about when I'm bored. Truth is, I don't wanna change the past and I don't wanna know of how the future would turn out. All I know is that, I'm here to enjoy the present with my beloved friends and their craziness.
So, if you're not happy bout your life, just think of the good times. Think of how many people are lucky to have you as their friend. Just be satisfied about your life la. Maybe if the past wasn't great, there's still lots of years to come. To make your mistakes right. To be better. To not make the same mistakes. Love your life even if it sucks.
I wonder if I could change the past. I wonder what it would be like if I was one of those quiet, really really smart people. I wonder what would happen if I wasn't in 6A last year. I wonder if I was never Lily's best friend. I wonder what I'd turn out to be if I was her best friend since Year 1. I wonder if I didn't go to that school. I wonder if I had gone to another school. What would I turn out to be? Would I be me, now? Would I have greater friends or lamer friends? But the past is the past. And, I'm glad of how the present is right now.
Since the past is the past, what about the future? Wonder what the future holds. I wonder what I'd be like. I wonder if I'd still be best friends with Raihah, Dina, Haziq or Taqi. I wonder what I'd turn out to be. One of those rich people who are popular or one of the "lame-os' who are actually the greatest people I've ever meet. I wonder if I'd be smart or dumb. I wonder what my friends would turn out to be. I wonder what tomorrow will be like.
I've always wondered what those popular, rich people think. Or what they talk about. Do they talk about craziness? Do they talk about tv shows? Songs? Gossips? Not that I'm saying they are bad people or anything, just that, I wonder these stuffs. But I have never had the courage to ask or hang with them. I wonder if they ever wonder what it is like to be friends with me or Raihah or Dina or the others. I wonder if they ever think of themselves as bad people. I wonder what it would be like to be one of them. I wonder what it would be like if I was one of them.
I wonder what people think of me. I wonder how many people like me or hate me. I wonder if I'm ever being loved. I wonder if people curse me behind my back. I wonder how many people would wanna be me. I wonder if my best friends hate me. I wonder what I did wrong to make people hate me. I wonder if anybody regretted being good friends with me. I wonder if my best friends know how much I care for them. I wonder if they know I'm grateful to have them in my life. I wonder if they know how much they had done for me. I wonder what they want in return.
I keep wondering these things. Although I seem like I want answers, I don't think I really do. I'm happy with my life. I'm glad of how things turn out. I'm glad of who my best friends are. I'm glad I have all these stuffs to wonder about when I'm bored. Truth is, I don't wanna change the past and I don't wanna know of how the future would turn out. All I know is that, I'm here to enjoy the present with my beloved friends and their craziness.
So, if you're not happy bout your life, just think of the good times. Think of how many people are lucky to have you as their friend. Just be satisfied about your life la. Maybe if the past wasn't great, there's still lots of years to come. To make your mistakes right. To be better. To not make the same mistakes. Love your life even if it sucks.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Thank you, Haziq
Dear Haziq,
At first, I thought you were just a normal boring kid who'd never be anywhere near being good friends with me (Yeah, yeah, I judge people. Let's not go through that again). But I thought wrong and I'm glad I put my thoughts aside. Look at us now. We're best friends/fake siblings. How did we become this close? It has something to do with Lisa, right? *sigh* You're the kinda person nobody wants to lose as a best friend.
You may not know it, but somehow, you changed my life. In both good and bad ways. I still remember when me and Lily fought the other day. Everything changed the next morning 'cause you made me realize how much I love hanging with her. Haziq, you helped me a lot. Don't doubt it. I mean, who's the one who made me smile when I was mad or sad or not in a good mood? Who was the one who made me a forgiving person? Who helped me solve my problems? Who helped me to not care whatever people are saying? Okay , you're not the only one who did that, but still... You did most of em. And what did I do for you? Nothing. Sometimes I feel like I'm not good enough to be your friend/sister.
I'm sorry. Sorry for the times I pinch you with the 'magical pinch' (as Dino says it). Sorry for the times I called you Big Headed Alien. Though, I'm still calling you that. I just want you to know that every time I say that, I'm sorry. Sorry for the times I made you mad. Sorry for the threat I did when you didn't help me catch Lutfil. Sorry if I made it hard for you at times. Easier way to say it, I'm SORRY for whatever I did or said wrong.
And, thank you. Thank you for changing me. Thank you for entertaining me. Thank you for helping me do this and that. Thank you for teaching me ICT that night. I know, I was dumb. Like, really dumb. Although I think I'll fail, thanks anyway. The paper was damn hard. But it helped. So, thanks. Thank you for being a great friend all these months. Thank you for making me happy at sad moments. Thank you for complimenting me and stuffs. Thank you for everything. I seriously do not know how to repay you. I hope saying thank you is enough. So, Thank You.
There's an extension to this blog post, but, I'd rather not write. All I want you to know is that, you're a great friend, you're different from my other guy friends, you're just awesome. And that I'm sorry for whatever and thank you for everything. And, yeah, I do love you, brother. Keep being awesome! Good Luck in your life and your studies. I hope we'll be friends for many many more years to come. *Finding a quote*
At first, I thought you were just a normal boring kid who'd never be anywhere near being good friends with me (Yeah, yeah, I judge people. Let's not go through that again). But I thought wrong and I'm glad I put my thoughts aside. Look at us now. We're best friends/fake siblings. How did we become this close? It has something to do with Lisa, right? *sigh* You're the kinda person nobody wants to lose as a best friend.
You may not know it, but somehow, you changed my life. In both good and bad ways. I still remember when me and Lily fought the other day. Everything changed the next morning 'cause you made me realize how much I love hanging with her. Haziq, you helped me a lot. Don't doubt it. I mean, who's the one who made me smile when I was mad or sad or not in a good mood? Who was the one who made me a forgiving person? Who helped me solve my problems? Who helped me to not care whatever people are saying? Okay , you're not the only one who did that, but still... You did most of em. And what did I do for you? Nothing. Sometimes I feel like I'm not good enough to be your friend/sister.
I'm sorry. Sorry for the times I pinch you with the 'magical pinch' (as Dino says it). Sorry for the times I called you Big Headed Alien. Though, I'm still calling you that. I just want you to know that every time I say that, I'm sorry. Sorry for the times I made you mad. Sorry for the threat I did when you didn't help me catch Lutfil. Sorry if I made it hard for you at times. Easier way to say it, I'm SORRY for whatever I did or said wrong.
And, thank you. Thank you for changing me. Thank you for entertaining me. Thank you for helping me do this and that. Thank you for teaching me ICT that night. I know, I was dumb. Like, really dumb. Although I think I'll fail, thanks anyway. The paper was damn hard. But it helped. So, thanks. Thank you for being a great friend all these months. Thank you for making me happy at sad moments. Thank you for complimenting me and stuffs. Thank you for everything. I seriously do not know how to repay you. I hope saying thank you is enough. So, Thank You.
There's an extension to this blog post, but, I'd rather not write. All I want you to know is that, you're a great friend, you're different from my other guy friends, you're just awesome. And that I'm sorry for whatever and thank you for everything. And, yeah, I do love you, brother. Keep being awesome! Good Luck in your life and your studies. I hope we'll be friends for many many more years to come. *Finding a quote*
"A friend in need is a friend indeed"
Monday, May 10, 2010
Teachers
Teachers. They are the people who teaches us in school. Who made us people. Well, not technically la but you know what I mean. They're the ones who believed in us to get A's for tests. They're the ones who never gave up. Even how bad we are, they never gave up on teaching us. Well, the teachers I know never gave up on me and my classmates.
Teachers give us homework to help us understand. Like, I mean, homework is the thingy that helps us to understand what the teacher was teaching. Okay, I don't understand that. But, blah! When the teachers give lots of homework, it doesn't mean they're evil, it means they care about us and want us to succeed in tests. Okay, fine, maybe a bit evil. But it's for the best.
Why do you think teachers scold us in class when we are not listening? Because they like scolding? Not really. It's because they want us to hear what they are teaching. Because they want us to pass our upcoming tests. Because they know we don't study at home. Well, some of us do. But most of us don't. Especially the subjects like, Geography or History or Arts. They know we don't study so they try to attract our attention in class. Making jokes, scolding us, letting us eat in class. Why do you think they do that? To get our attention! Because they know that the subjects they are teaching are boring. It bores us. Teachers know because they were once teenagers/kids/young adults like us. How do you think they grow up?
To me, although I say bad stuffs about teachers, I feel like they are under-appreciated. I mean, they teach us. They go to bookshops after bookshops to find exercise books for us. To photocopy our homework. How much money and energy do you think that cost? Yeah, okay, we pay them. But what do we do? We just cut and paste and do it while not knowing they went here and there. And to make it worse, some of us don't even say 'thank you' to the teacher when they got the books or the papers. We should always say 'thank you' to show our appreciation to the teacher. Not just a teacher but to all teachers. And, god! I always see people come in and out of the class just like that. I mean, like, they say "Teacher, may I see ....?" or "May I .....?" or what some rude people just do... Knock the door, bow to the teacher, take their stuffs or see the person they wanna see, then go away. How do you think the teacher feels? My teacher almost cried when she saw one of my friends just walk in and go out like that without even greeting the teacher. Have some respect la for the teachers. Our teachers. The people who teaches us. The people who tries their hardest to make us succeed.
So, to all you students, don't make the teachers sad or disappointed la. If you don't know, it's okay. Learn from your mistakes. What teachers teach, we learn. We make them happy by succeeding in our tests. Okay, maybe I don't succeed in my tests but I'm willing to try harder. So, don't give up. Never give up. Giving up just means losing everything. So, better don't. Show some appreciation to our teachers. Not only the teachers who teach us but to all. Teachers are like our second parents. They teach us right and wrong, good and bad. They take care of us during school hours. Why do you think they give long speeches during the assembly about how we should dress, about how we should not take drugs or skip school or skip class? They care. They really do. Don't think otherwise :). Teachers day is coming. This Sunday, 16th of May. Give them at least a card.
Teachers give us homework to help us understand. Like, I mean, homework is the thingy that helps us to understand what the teacher was teaching. Okay, I don't understand that. But, blah! When the teachers give lots of homework, it doesn't mean they're evil, it means they care about us and want us to succeed in tests. Okay, fine, maybe a bit evil. But it's for the best.
Why do you think teachers scold us in class when we are not listening? Because they like scolding? Not really. It's because they want us to hear what they are teaching. Because they want us to pass our upcoming tests. Because they know we don't study at home. Well, some of us do. But most of us don't. Especially the subjects like, Geography or History or Arts. They know we don't study so they try to attract our attention in class. Making jokes, scolding us, letting us eat in class. Why do you think they do that? To get our attention! Because they know that the subjects they are teaching are boring. It bores us. Teachers know because they were once teenagers/kids/young adults like us. How do you think they grow up?
To me, although I say bad stuffs about teachers, I feel like they are under-appreciated. I mean, they teach us. They go to bookshops after bookshops to find exercise books for us. To photocopy our homework. How much money and energy do you think that cost? Yeah, okay, we pay them. But what do we do? We just cut and paste and do it while not knowing they went here and there. And to make it worse, some of us don't even say 'thank you' to the teacher when they got the books or the papers. We should always say 'thank you' to show our appreciation to the teacher. Not just a teacher but to all teachers. And, god! I always see people come in and out of the class just like that. I mean, like, they say "Teacher, may I see ....?" or "May I .....?" or what some rude people just do... Knock the door, bow to the teacher, take their stuffs or see the person they wanna see, then go away. How do you think the teacher feels? My teacher almost cried when she saw one of my friends just walk in and go out like that without even greeting the teacher. Have some respect la for the teachers. Our teachers. The people who teaches us. The people who tries their hardest to make us succeed.
So, to all you students, don't make the teachers sad or disappointed la. If you don't know, it's okay. Learn from your mistakes. What teachers teach, we learn. We make them happy by succeeding in our tests. Okay, maybe I don't succeed in my tests but I'm willing to try harder. So, don't give up. Never give up. Giving up just means losing everything. So, better don't. Show some appreciation to our teachers. Not only the teachers who teach us but to all. Teachers are like our second parents. They teach us right and wrong, good and bad. They take care of us during school hours. Why do you think they give long speeches during the assembly about how we should dress, about how we should not take drugs or skip school or skip class? They care. They really do. Don't think otherwise :). Teachers day is coming. This Sunday, 16th of May. Give them at least a card.
Friday, May 7, 2010
It's not fair
Life is not fair. Seriously, it's not. It might seem fair when you get something you want, but, really, it's not. It doesn't matter la it's now or in the afterlife. It's not fair. Do you think those really really rich people who gets what they want will be in heaven? NO! Well, no if they're not Muslims la.
Have you ever thought of changing your life with someone? Well, you better stop right now! Because, don't you think that person's life isn't fair? Okay, she or he might seem perfect, but I bet she or he has had much more rougher times than you have. If not, then... all I can say is , WOW!! But most of the people I want to change my life with, I discovered that when they have rough times, it's really bad. But their good times are really good. So, it's like, not accurate. I'm guessing I should love my life no matter what happens.
It's not fair when another person gets what we want most! It's not fair when we get average grades and our parents scold us but when our friends get bad grades, their parents don't scold them. It's not fair when we're in need of money and a person keeps showing of his or her money on our faces!! It's just not fair!!!
This world is full of unfairness. You may think now that it's the most unfair moment in your life. But, expect the unexpected. There are more surprises in life! More unfairness. More cruelty. More whatever. Like, this time, I like this one guy, but he had a girlfriend. When I see his relationship status on his wall in facebook, I'd be, "Man! It must be fun to be that girl! ><". But somehow I managed to get through the heartbreaking thingy. Now, I kinda realized that I was soooo pathetic that time and that girlfriend of his must had a really bad memory with him. Because, he's not really the kind of guy you girls would wanna like. Chatting with him is like.... chatting with an old man. So damn boring. And slow! So, now, I'm kinda glad I'm me.
It's not fair that this girl gets to win the fight you and her are in. It's not fair that she has more people on her side than you do. It's unfair that her mind works quickly and you need time to think about all the things. It's not fair that her friends are great speakers (that's not right, blahh) and your friends are quiet. But in the end, nobody really wins. Or loses. Because both of you will apologize to each other. Both will forgive each other. It doesn't matter how long it is. 3 days or 3 years, when that person realizes she's wrong, she'll regret it and apologize. And the other person will forgive :). So, any of you having fights, don't be stubborn la. Just apologize -.-''.
It's not fair that you are not a teacher's pet. It's not fair that that person gets the most attention. It's not fair that she or he always finishes his or her homework in time. It's not fair that they have nice handwriting and you don't. It's not fair that they get success and you don't. The key here is, you need to try harder. You wanna be a teacher's pet, you try to get A's and finish your homework in time. You want to get attention, then, attract some! When it comes to homework, everybody hates it. Don't care who la, but everybody hates it! Don't you think the teachers hate marking our books? I bet some of them do. Anyway, you just gotta try to NOT get distracted while doing homework. About the handwriting part, I guess you just have to practice writing more. Sooner or later, it will turn out neat.
So, any other unfair situations, just think positively. Like, how many people would wanna be you? You might think nobody wants to be you, but, who knows? Sometimes I wonder who would wanna be me. But it's best to be yourself. If you're not happy with yourself, you try asking other people, are they happy with their lives. Are they happy with you. If they are, then, why are you not? There is absolutely no reason for you to not be happy with yourself! When you're feeling down, there's always a person who is there by your side. The person who'll make you laugh even when you're sad. When they do that, you remember the good times you had. You forget about all those stuffs. The thing is, you don't think it's not fair. You think, it's fair. You got something good, you get something bad. Everybody gets it. Good and bad moments. Doesn't really matter who you are, there's always good moments and bad moments. And, when you're sad, think about the good times. Think about all the fun things in your life. Think about what funny joke your best friends made. About your new experience. How great your friends are. All those stuffs. Sometimes, you just have to put the bad stuffs aside. Because if you keep that bad memory in mind, and you talk about it with your friends, one by one, they'll leave you. They'll get bored. Better lose the saddle than the horse. Go find out what that means.
Conclusion is, we don't think that it's unfair. Think it's fair. And, don't let your friends get bored of you. Especially your best friends. They're the best thing you have.
Life is fair :)
Have you ever thought of changing your life with someone? Well, you better stop right now! Because, don't you think that person's life isn't fair? Okay, she or he might seem perfect, but I bet she or he has had much more rougher times than you have. If not, then... all I can say is , WOW!! But most of the people I want to change my life with, I discovered that when they have rough times, it's really bad. But their good times are really good. So, it's like, not accurate. I'm guessing I should love my life no matter what happens.
It's not fair when another person gets what we want most! It's not fair when we get average grades and our parents scold us but when our friends get bad grades, their parents don't scold them. It's not fair when we're in need of money and a person keeps showing of his or her money on our faces!! It's just not fair!!!
This world is full of unfairness. You may think now that it's the most unfair moment in your life. But, expect the unexpected. There are more surprises in life! More unfairness. More cruelty. More whatever. Like, this time, I like this one guy, but he had a girlfriend. When I see his relationship status on his wall in facebook, I'd be, "Man! It must be fun to be that girl! ><". But somehow I managed to get through the heartbreaking thingy. Now, I kinda realized that I was soooo pathetic that time and that girlfriend of his must had a really bad memory with him. Because, he's not really the kind of guy you girls would wanna like. Chatting with him is like.... chatting with an old man. So damn boring. And slow! So, now, I'm kinda glad I'm me.
It's not fair that this girl gets to win the fight you and her are in. It's not fair that she has more people on her side than you do. It's unfair that her mind works quickly and you need time to think about all the things. It's not fair that her friends are great speakers (that's not right, blahh) and your friends are quiet. But in the end, nobody really wins. Or loses. Because both of you will apologize to each other. Both will forgive each other. It doesn't matter how long it is. 3 days or 3 years, when that person realizes she's wrong, she'll regret it and apologize. And the other person will forgive :). So, any of you having fights, don't be stubborn la. Just apologize -.-''.
It's not fair that you are not a teacher's pet. It's not fair that that person gets the most attention. It's not fair that she or he always finishes his or her homework in time. It's not fair that they have nice handwriting and you don't. It's not fair that they get success and you don't. The key here is, you need to try harder. You wanna be a teacher's pet, you try to get A's and finish your homework in time. You want to get attention, then, attract some! When it comes to homework, everybody hates it. Don't care who la, but everybody hates it! Don't you think the teachers hate marking our books? I bet some of them do. Anyway, you just gotta try to NOT get distracted while doing homework. About the handwriting part, I guess you just have to practice writing more. Sooner or later, it will turn out neat.
So, any other unfair situations, just think positively. Like, how many people would wanna be you? You might think nobody wants to be you, but, who knows? Sometimes I wonder who would wanna be me. But it's best to be yourself. If you're not happy with yourself, you try asking other people, are they happy with their lives. Are they happy with you. If they are, then, why are you not? There is absolutely no reason for you to not be happy with yourself! When you're feeling down, there's always a person who is there by your side. The person who'll make you laugh even when you're sad. When they do that, you remember the good times you had. You forget about all those stuffs. The thing is, you don't think it's not fair. You think, it's fair. You got something good, you get something bad. Everybody gets it. Good and bad moments. Doesn't really matter who you are, there's always good moments and bad moments. And, when you're sad, think about the good times. Think about all the fun things in your life. Think about what funny joke your best friends made. About your new experience. How great your friends are. All those stuffs. Sometimes, you just have to put the bad stuffs aside. Because if you keep that bad memory in mind, and you talk about it with your friends, one by one, they'll leave you. They'll get bored. Better lose the saddle than the horse. Go find out what that means.
Conclusion is, we don't think that it's unfair. Think it's fair. And, don't let your friends get bored of you. Especially your best friends. They're the best thing you have.
Life is fair :)
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Hidayah!!!
HIDAAAYAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHH!!! I'm gonna send a special message to you!!!
Tomorrow's a very special day for this one funny girl. Wee xD! Hidayah. One of the funniest person I've met! Seriously!! I can't stop laughing when I'm with her!! LOL!! Hidayah, sorry I didn't/can't get you anything for your birthday :(. Tak sempat. Sheesh. WAIT!! I KNOW!! I'll give yah those Ferarro Rocher (dono how to spell) chocolates!!! Hehehe xD. LOL!! I hope you like chocolatesssss :D. Anyway....
Tomorrow's a very special day for this one funny girl. Wee xD! Hidayah. One of the funniest person I've met! Seriously!! I can't stop laughing when I'm with her!! LOL!! Hidayah, sorry I didn't/can't get you anything for your birthday :(. Tak sempat. Sheesh. WAIT!! I KNOW!! I'll give yah those Ferarro Rocher (dono how to spell) chocolates!!! Hehehe xD. LOL!! I hope you like chocolatesssss :D. Anyway....
Happy Birthday!!!
Don't stop.. being funny!! I like you!!! When you're funny. -.-'' HAHA! No lah... :D Dayah, good luck with that guy you like!! Although I don't think it's proper to like a guy who is way way older than you. But, the heart wants what the heart wants. LOL xD. Heard that in The Suite Life of Zack and Cody. Can I bring my camera tomorrow? I wanna take a video of you and post it on youtube!! WEExD! Don't be so sad la about that choir video that is very meaningless... Dengar orang tuh cakap je banyak. :P Found your wallet yet? I wanna see your IC. I've seen Raihah's, Dina's... even Taqi's. Sooo... Yours couldn't be worse. LOL!! Taqi's IC looks funny!! You should see it sometimes!! LOL!!
Last words : GOOD LUCK!!! In everything :). Don't stop being funny!!!
Last words : GOOD LUCK!!! In everything :). Don't stop being funny!!!