The world has turned upside down!!

Okay, freaky. One minute, the world's fine and awesome. The next minute, things were bad. Why? I guess this is what they meant by 'A day can change your whole life'. It's amazing right? I mean, one minute this guy, Haziq, Lisa's boyfriend, seems so nice and fun to be with and then, the next minute, Keanu and Nasreen said somethings that hurt Lisa's feelings. But, we have to understand that not everybody is how we expect or want them to be. They are their own person. It's their life. They do whatever they want, like whoever they want, say anything they want to say. We can't control them. If we control them, that just mean that we are not good friends.

The world was right side up this morning, but now, it's upside down again. Lisa and me got into a fight. She wants me to be a girlfriend of some guy i don't know. And then she teased me and expect me to listen to whatever she says. So what? I don't like that guy. I do not want to be with him. Yeah, I want a boyfriend but not now. I'm still a kid. What? Her boyfriend teases me, now she's doing it too? And she's my best friend, so I can't do that hand thing? Why not? If I get too annoyed, I'll do it la. It's my choice. I don't mind losing a best friend right about now. Especially her. I don't care if she says sorry or whatever. I am so not listening. I don't care if she begged till her knees are hurt. I am still not forgiving her. I've got other friends. And last night, Keanu was mad at her and she was so mad. I mean, yeah, she's cool, nice, funny and all that but that doesn't mean everyone likes her. Some people don't like her or are uncomfortable with her. She said she doesn't want to hear about the bad side of a person and stuff. Everybody has their bad side. You can't expect them to be perfect or anything. Nobody's perfect. If you're perfect, you're a nobody. So what if people don't like Haziq, Lisa's boyfriend? Lisa, you have got to realized that people will get mad at you sometimes and not everybody likes everybody. Some people dislike these people and these people hate those people. Nobody's the same. We can't control each other and we can't expect them to be like this or like that.

Look, it's not my fault that Keanu was mad at you and it's not my fault that I do not like and do not want to be with that guy. Everybody gets mad at their friend. I also get mad sometimes and sometimes my friends get mad at me. But a few minutes or hours or days later, we'll be friends again. The problem is, you can't expect people to be like this and you can't expect that the person you teased to react like, "Oh, okay, fine, I will be with him. If you want me to, I will. Anything to make you happy". NO!! People won't act like that. Maybe some will but others don't. Lisa, just because your boyfriend said this and that about him, doesn't mean you have to side him. And, boyfriends come and go. Best friends are what matters most. If I can do my oral again, I will throw Lisa out. Because best friends do not treat best friends like this. That's just called a friend... I will no longer continue, there's no point in doing this

Monday (22/3/10) and Tuesday (23/3/10)

Monday (22/3/10)

I always hate Mondays. Mondays are boring. Usually. But, last Monday, I felt excited. I want it to come earlier!! Faster!! But then again, I want it to come later and slower. Or, you know, just never happen. I was excited because, my friend, Malik, from St. John's was coming to SAB. He loved Lisa before. So did Lisa. Now, Lisa has a boyfriend, which is a big headed alien, Haziq. So, I thought that there was going to be a lot of drama. Since I loved drama so much, I so want that Monday to come faster but then, it didn't turn out how I thought it would. Ms. Maria, 1M's class teacher changed Dina Sabrina's seat next to Raihah's. Raihah kept layan-ing Dina. But at that time, it didn't matter so much to me cause Raihah still layans me. There was nothing much really in class. Then, after class, we had to stay back for kawad practice. Malik joined the Syahbandar team. He went to kawad on his first day! Wow! Haziq was like, "Malik tau ke? OMG, die masuk syahbandar. Who told him?" (i think, not really sure... hahha, sorry).

In the car, when I was going back with Raihah, I didn't say much. There wasn't really anything to talk about. When I got home, I called Lisa. She was freaked out when I said what I thought about Malik was right. *sigh* Mondays might be miserable but at the end of the day, things will always work out. Trust me. Try thinking positive once in a while.

Tuesday (23/3/10)

Tuesday, which is today, was kind of not fun. At science class, the teacher was talking crap. Me and Rou Yee didn't understand a thing. Well, maybe we did but some of them, we didn't understand. And then, in Sejarah class, Raihah had her back turned on me for the whole hour. She was with Dina. Talking in low voices so I can't hear them. They did ask me why I was so quiet once or twice but I just acted normal and said I was fine. There was nothing to talk about anyway. Okay, I admit that I am a little jealous of them hanging out together and become nice friends and not talk to me but do they HAVE to be like that? URGH!! At recess time, I ran away from them (avoiding) to Lisa. I searched for her everywhere and can't find her until, at last!! I found her (this is getting crappy). We didn't have enough time to gossip about BHA because I was talking crap about Raihah and Dina. Lisa said that Dina talked slowly on purpose because she wants to leave me out. I kinda think that is true because Dina has never talked to me like she talks to Raihah. And then, I told Lisa that Dina blamed her for everything. She said that, Dina might be stealing away Raihah from me. She said Dina would say, "Amilah cam dah tak nak hang ngen you ohh. Die asyik dengan Lisa je. Maybe die tak nak kawan you dah kot", to Raihah. I was like, "I HATE DINA!!!", but Lisa was saying "1 minute of hate is 60 seconds of not loving". That actually make sense now. But then again, I still hate Dina. I have never loved her. In english class, since Dina was in another class, I was jumping for joy that I don't have to see her for an hour. I had to present my oral first today because that Nadhrah girl didn't wanna go because she wasn't ready. Is there such a thing as wasn't ready? My oral was kinda stupid. I was blank at that time since I have to go first. And to make it worse, Taqi Teriyaki and Eddie (Murphy) was sitting in front. They're faces are weird, so, I kept laughing while presenting my oral. Then, at kawad practice, Haziq talked about Hafiy!! I was killing him whenever he said his name. I so hate him. (the not haziq guy). AND CAN YOU BELIEVE HAZIQ TOLD JOHN ABOUT IT?!!! URGH!! That guy just drives me mad. I made him promise not to say his name again.

Lisa said to call her tonight but she's not picking up her phone. I think I've called her more than 10 times. Is she not my friend anymore? Could that happen? What if it does? If it does, I'll so cry. I have no more friends. Well, I have friends but I don't have any more friends like her. She's so... like her. Caring, understanding, smart, funny and stuff. I'll cry if she's not my friend anymore. :( Lisa, pick up, please!!

Fairy tales

Do fairy tales exist? Some people say they don't. Some people say they do. To me, we all have our fairy tale moments. Or will have. Soon. Lisa has got hers. She has got it a lot of times. But, this time, it's for real. She's really in love and her prince is also in love with her. The prob is that Lisa's ex-crush is going to the same school as we are. And he is still madly in love with her. Will Haziq do whatever he can to protect his lady? Gosh, this is like a story.

Anyway, back to the topic...

My fairy tale hasn't started yet. Well, I guess not. But, if my friends' fairy tales came true, i guess I'll just be happy for them.
But, I'm not jealous of them. Supporting is part of being a good friend, even if it means giving up what you love most. Even if we're supporting the wrong thing, it's still right because you're doing it for your friends. Anyway, fairy tales are not for a lifetime right?? They come and go. Sometimes that fairy tale stays long and sometimes, it's just for awhile. Then it's back to reality. I hope my fairytale would come sooner. My life is kind of miserable right about now. I know fairy tales like, the prince is on a white horse in the summer air at a far away land and the princess was wearing a white long dress. Blah blah blah. Those are soo not true... Mengarut jer.. I want my fairytale to happen spontaneously. I want it to be real and not just a dream. Something like that. If we want fairy tales we have to go through reality first right? That sucks.

People Change

Why do people change? I hate it when they change. I know I change too. But, that's because I follow my friends. Right? Do we really need to change? Is it for the best? What if you were fun, talkative, weird, evil, nice and stuff before and then you changed to be a boring, quiet, normal, really really nice (Almost creepy kinda nice) person? That's not better right? So, why?

I guess, when people meets new people, they change. They change like the person they just met. Is it because they adore them? Is it because they think that person is better that the way she/he is right now? So what if that person is better than us? We're all different. We're all special in our own ways. Being different is apart of life. It's better to be different than to be normal. To me, being normal or being like "that" person is not fun. And, that person will get annoyed if another person follows his/her every move. It's creepy dudes.

I'm not saying that changing is bad. I'm not saying that at all. Sometimes changing is good. But, if you change for the worse or you change for the boring(i don't think that's right), then, why change? Better stay the way you are. People are not perfect. Even if that person makes the perfect moves, has the perfect handwriting, has the perfect house, the perfect parents, they've got to have something that's not perfect. Maybe they don't get perfect grades. Maybe their personality isn't good. Maybe their friends are not real ( not like that!! real like, true friends ). Nobody's perfect right? It's okay if you make mistakes, nobody cares much.Sure, you'll get people mad and sure, they'll probably hate you for the moment, but, hey! It's life. Gotta go with the flow.

You can't say that people don't change. 'Cause they do. Maybe it's just because that's the way life goes. Can't change the past, can't predict the future. Think again, the past maybe wasn't that bad. Even if you had no friends, the past could probably be still good. One of the reasons it's good is because, it's over. You don't have to go through it again. And the future, you just have to wait. It might be good, it might be bad. If your past was bad, your future might be good. Who knows? Everybody has their ups and downs right? It's not always good and it's not always bad. So, to people who's been having bad lucks through their life, Good Luck! And, too the opposite people, keep on loving life.

xoxo,
Amil :D

The Carnival

I know, people think carnivals are dirty and un-sanitized and stuff. But actually, it's kinda okay. We(me, my sis and cuzzin) had fun just now(3-4 hrs ago) :P. It was held at my sister's school which is Fairview Wangsa Maju(is that rite??). At first, we went to the Horror House. After a few scares, my sister cried and my cousin had to escort her out along with this other girl i don't know. So, there's me and this one small girl I don't know left. And that guy who leads the way. Almost every "BAH!!"(forgot what it is called), I screamed. I screamed more than that little girl. :D hehe. It was awesome. There was two rooms. The second one was scarier. Too bad my sister and cousin didn't follow on. Huh, they really made it work.
After that, we went outdoors to search for new games to play. There was this game, idk what it's called. But it was played in Zoey 101. When, Chase and Zoey fought. erm erm... they used that thingy thing. Like, the exercise lifting machine thingy. Never mind. I lost. My cousin, Nabil won. He got two tokens. The tokens can be redeemed at the fourth floor. Anyway, we played this and that. There was this game, Rubber Sugar or something. You have to take out the rubber bands from the sugar mountain using a toothpick and only using your mouth. If you don't understand, never mind. And then, there was pin the tail on the donkey. We played it three times in order to get tokens.
Huh, lazy la to write so long. I'll just end it. We went up and down the stairs. Blablabla. THE SCHOOL HAS AN ELEVATOR!! OR MAYBE MORE!!! Later on, we went to the redemption classroom to redeem our tokens. My sister picked a bee and got a chocolate Rocky. When we got down, my cousin asked the counter person at the Horror House if he can go in for free. And he got in!! But he said it wasn't that much fun 'cause the people in there were lazy already to do the same things over and over again!

LIFE!!

Life!! It has many obstacles that everybody have to go through..... sometimes, you get the best of it and sometimes you get the worst of it. Can't blame it if it's not fun sometimes. And, if you don't get whatever you want, it's not the end of the world. I learned that I have to work hard to get what I want in my life. Like, getting straight A's.... I have to study hard for it. Money, I just have to not spend it much. Stuffs, clothes, hair products... Those stuff don't really matter. You don't need to be friends with those kinda people. If they are really your true friends, they'll accept you for who you are not because you have branded clothes or lots of money. You need to find your true self before being friends with people. Some people say "you can't judge a book by its cover," but actually, you can. To find great friends, think of the really awesome popular people. Then, think the opposite. They're the ones who won't judge you by your looks. They'll judge you for who you are.

Back to the topic...

As my friend Lisa always say, Love Your Life 'cause you only get to live with it once. So, I'm taking her advice or really really good words or whatever. Don't hate your life although it sucks sometimes. Life being suck-ish is part of life. I know, I'm not making sense but read it again and again. I am actually making sense. Some things will make your life good if your life is sucking right now. Friends, good ones.. the ones who truly care about you. I have mine, Lily, Raihah, Lisa, Haziq, Adilah(ridwana), Aida(liyana). Other people are your families. Maybe even teachers. Other ways to make life good.... watching funny shows, doing things you like and stuff like that. I do it all the time when I'm sad. But, I realized that I don't need those stuff 'cause my friends are always there for me.